Marbles missing

IM sorry but im an idiot,
My sole Purpose is to create a riot,
I hate to fight,
but i no longer tell which's rite,
a mystic figure shadows my sight,
covering me from a single light,
i glow from within,
but i shine wit sin,
mayb bcz i wear a mask,
giving me hate like a hot water flask,
My world crumbles n shatters,
under my breathe curses i mutter,
the thunder growls and the slammin shutter,
i wanna be free, away from this cluster,
i wish to die sooner not later,
but i promise sum1 ill b there forever,
mayb i will, mayb i'll never,
but i noe im much crazierr,
till den so long my n good bye my long lost fren,
i shall see u again in the end.