sorry sayang

fight fight fight... dats all i do rite now wit my gf.. no more romantic feeling, no more taking care of her feeling, jz destroyinh her mental health..

Y da hell im like this nowdays, i dun noe..jz feeling angst n frustation without a reason... always finding prob.. Y Y Y Y AM I A FUCKING ARSEHOLE TO MY GAL!!!???..

She didnt do anything to hurt me but im hurting her,.. i cant live wit that feeling.. knowing that i hurt her so much.. i noe i can say sorry but it really doesnt do the trick.. i can still tell she's sad n pissed at me...

i wanna jz break wit her jz so i wont pressure her anymore but i still love her so much n i rather b wit her than without..fuck im confuse..
n i know she's hurt.. really badly... wat am i to do??.. sorry sayang.. i cant do much.. i hate myself so much right now.. knowing ur sad that i caused it.. hurts me n make me feel like wanna kill myself... i hope u kill me wen i meet u jz so u'll feel better n live ur live happily without me pressuring me again..i feel so fucked...

i feel bad

i feel like suicide


i feel like such an ass...

i hope i die..

i hope i dun live to see the next day light...

i hopeu live happily ever after..

i hope u dun feel hur cz of me again..

i hope u dun cry anymore
i hope u dun b sad anymore.

im gonna leave u alone for a while now,.. but im not breaking up..
im not quitin u wen i have sumthing really special..

u changed my life... u actually made me enjoy life ina way i never felt..

i finally noe wat true love is..

but now i jz hate my self..

ok im gonna shut up now..

if u feel like callin or msgin me anytime..

please do... imm really really sorry.. :-(<