DEAD NOT BURIED

i sumtime wonder why am i on eart?? wat ever i do effects sum1 in sumway... especially my gf... i've beeen a really, really, really bad bf lately.. yelling at her for no reason.. stupid rite? y treat her like dat wen she my princess, the queen on my heart... but it did happen n no matter how much sorry i say, it the n guilt never goes away..

im no the kind of guy that can forgive n forget... forgetin is 1 of my BIG flaws, i never can forget.. things dat happen, conversation jz comes in my mind at random times n i am force to replay the memories over again.. it suck.. i think im half past crazy.. dunno la.. if u wud excuse me.. i wanna go murder a mosquito n kill the internet..

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i hate... i hate... i hate...

oops.. wrong blog...

sorry for being a jerk...

im sorry sayang... for all this while being suchan idiot 2 u... hope u u.stand... sorry..


peace is wat i really need,
sumthing only u can give,
tho i have made u weep,
but without u i cannot live,
a hug from u is all i want,
a warmth unlike the sun,
ur kiss as sweet as candy's sweet,
i promise u a dinner under candlelith,
i may b fat but my love is fit,
i miss wen on my lap u sit,
tho nw i hear the noise of india,
ill love u where ever u are,..

tiredness...

haiz... its 8pm... n its been 32hours since i last slept... overnited in college to record sum songs... need to go bek n sleep.. tired...

finally, i get to go bek on friday.. 4.30pm bus to kuantan... wanna meet my sayang,.. miss her so much.., have been a really really bad bf latey... scolding her for no reason.. haiz.. really bad.. wanna make things rite wit her.. at least have my valentine date wit her... hopefully a day at the beach... jz sit, picnic n wATCH the sunset...

also go bek n fic my laptop screen.. crack!!!!.. aiyaa.. lazy write la.. wanna go bek home 1st... wanna shower, n sleep.. like a log , sleep, n hope no stupid fuckin mutha fucka's wake me up (no offense to uncle but i need my rest la!!).... till then.. ciowz

crazy february

so LOng never blog.. malas ler.. anyways, here's my update..

SHIFted house from shah alam to USJ1.. better environment (den again, anywhere without that bitch is a good environment)...

HAvent spend at least 2hours wit my gf for the past 4weeks in total (yes, only 2hours the most 4 3weeks),.. very very sad n missing my gal so much...

tonnes of assignment with due dates coming up.. really crazy.... recording a lot lately. most probably recording my band tmr morning...

ok la.. in class now.. hopee mr.aarif dun kill me.. lol... ur class is fun..

idiocy of life..

Anyone who drive of ride a bike know taht in kl or selangor (its the same la u idiots.. u live 20mins away), that people drive like maniacs... i dun know where u guys get the license (definitely under table wan), all drive so crazy.. in kuantan, at least u can blink wen u drive, here, u blink n that cud be the end of u... car's from the right lane will cut pass u, no signal, to the left lane which is sumtimes is 5lanes apart... they'll jz cut like dat, no signal n the junction is like 10metres away... how fast must u drive n cut... wat the fuck la people...no life meh?.. no brains ka?..aiyoo... use the road like ur grandfather own the road... mangkuk nyer korang!!!...

anyways... here are some idioms in malay i translate to english... hope its funny...

makan tak kenyang, tido tak lena, mandi tak basah - eat not full, sleep like no sleep, bath but not wet,

mati katak - die frog

main kayu tiga - play wood three

air mata - water eye

selamat jalan - safe walk

nyawa-nyawa ikan - fish live

lipas kudung - crippled cockroach

New Year New Post!!

after 14days of the new year baru mau type post.. ini orang banyak suey kan?.. lol....

anyways, here i am.. in college hogging the net since my class starts at 2pm... i went for the Youth09 Battle of the Bands (BTOB) competition.. kinda disapointing really cz we didnt get chosen even for the semi's cz the like 10-12bands that were chosen out of 22bands for the finals suck!! big time!!.. dunno how they choose but wat to do... v jz see only lor.. but lucky the winner was a band worthy a bit la.. very jam band like.. cool.. then fly.fm had the campur charts thingy.. LOVE ME BUTCH played.. AWESOME>. finally after like 1year, i manage to mosh n scream my lungs out... such a relieved (dat how i calm down btw... well at least i use to.)... den i helped my college pack up their equipment cz they had like a open mic thingy.. We co-op wit doppleganger, sum music/live event organiser.. very good artist show up.. Including Scene At The Movie... they were awesome.. even bout their EP.. cool stuff.....

after all the fun n a good night sleep, returning bek to college after 3weeks holiday, it was like ur floating on air like a bird, den suddenly got show in the ass n u drop to earth.. extreme reality we realise... 3Assignments due... 2 3d assignment and 1 studio acoustic assignment...EXTREME!!!!!...

but it was all cool la.. had a fun day.. nw v hav classes wit mr.Arip, fun guy.... so class isnt dat of a bore...

ok.. malas wan type dy.. oo.. ill b shifting house soon but still looking for a place...