In Real Deep Shitz

its now 9.14am on a saturday morning... im still at college since i overnited for Dj-ing and i havent slept for 24hours literally... Been a really exhausting day... Very emotional and physically tiring.
Im jz waiting for Amri or Khairul ( Our College technical supervisors) to come in so i can sign out the Dj room key... I wish they come sooner....

As u can see from the title... im in real shitz... Life isnt beautifull with me at the moment... matter in fact... its brutal... Its like hitler's soul jz came down from heaven and im its prey for fun... Feeling wat im feeling isnt good... Though it needed me to be in this state to be thinking a lot... I still hate the feeling and the fact of where i am... Life is Unfair.. Life is a bitch.. life is a Dick... You Fuck or get fucked.. well, apparently, judging by how my life is now.... Im mother nature's lil bitch... There goes wat's left of my dignity.... *Sits in a corner and go emo*....

For those of asking... What are my problems?... well.. let me explain to u...

The 1st... and always... IS Money.... im in actually In real shit wit money... For the Room that im gonna rent from college admins... That'll cost me Rm660 the 1st month plus deposit and utilities... Im almost broke now and i duwan to ask my parents for money for the room.. i told them i cud manage and i will...... sum how... i dunno.. but i have to.... The room is Rm280 per month... pretty alrite since it comes wit an air con. I dun mind la... JZ need to pay the 1st month den i can manage my way tru... Wondering where to Cough up Rm600 at least.. for the room... haiz..... Then.. MY Phone bill.... Its off the roof... cz i've been calling my gf.... she's using Digi.. so u noe la... How much my bill?.. hmmmm... i rather u not noe... but it is pretty high... so.. adding that to the room rent.... u noe wat that means rite?... it means I.... A.M... F.U.C.K.E.D!!! Where can i get money??.. GOd.. PLease save me...

Then the 2nd shitz dat im in... and the worst wan... My gf and I will be breaking up... ok ok.. relax people... dun get shocked... or a heart attack.. breathe.. breathe... feeling better?.. ok.. good.. let me explain.... U See... My Gf mum doesnt wan my baby to date while in college... for sum reasons... * Choose any reason that parents always give their children to not date wen in an education system*..... Seeing my baby tear up in front of me was enuf.... cz i didnt wan her to disapoint her mum *not to mention the mum threaten my baby by puling her out of college if she dis-obeys*.. I rather she continue with her life and be succesfull instead of hangin on to me, sum1 dat might not be even to provide for her...

SO we decided to break... jz for the moment. and when i say moment.. i meant 3years or till she finish studyin, which ever comes last.... Monday will be the day we are officially un-tied to each other.... And the thought of it jz scares me... What if sum guy comes in and sweep my baby's feet away? what if in btwn of distance, we no longer feel wat we're currently feeling for each other?.. I noe, i noe... u might be thinking im jz paranoid and the lack of sleep is increasing my "dream machine" work load... but im still "sober-headed"... i noe wat im thinking... 1month, 2weeks and 3days it has been.... and another 2days is all we have to say i love you's... hug each other.. kiss each other...hold hands in public.. 48hours is all we have... 48hours is all i have before i go bek into my prison.. singlehood.... yes yes.. i noe... but im like dat... i love being attached... not a big fan of singlehood... call me an old uncle but thats how i am... Damn... my head hurts... Where the hell are this people to get me out of college!!!

Im Currently looking for a job... need to support my spending... especially my room and utilities..
Wonder if any has a job to offer?>. anything... i'll take anything u give.....

ok ok.. i better stop.. my head hurts... i feel like crying.. literally... in a real dilemma and i have no more strength... im jz squeezing wat ever i have left of me to carry on... I need a hug... i need my baby back.... Doesnt this jz seem so unfair?... y does all my relationship has sum sort of weird parents saying no.. not even a disagreement.. a straight up BIG NO NO!!!.. arrrgghh!!.. wat am i to do???.. haiz... nvm,,, we'll see how this goes.. till den... :(

Jobless Week 1

Well... its been 10days since my last post.... lots of things has happened in btwn... ups and down.. fun and frowns... Life's been lazy and fattening... i noe the weight i lost during the Gym-ing days at Kuantan has been re-gained... So need to start my gym-ing again... haiz....

Well, The Audition at Coco Banana Didnt go so well as i didnt get the job. Though i did rock the crowd, apparently my mixing wAsnt good enuf for them... well... i didnt wanna argue... so i jz said thank you for the chance.. they said jz improve on mixing and come bek again next time... in which i will...So this leave's me jobless for this month for now... i Had a bad feeling all of the sudden.. jz didnt feel rite at 1 point.. i feel bad cz my baby had to see me go tru it... it made her a lil uncomfortable and i wished i held it bek more.. sorry baby... but we all have our demons...

College... The 7th Sem... The FINAL sem has started.... its a lil empty cz the classes are only in the morning... Been ok la.. only that waking up in the morning is such a bitch.. but ill get used to it.. sum how...

Assignments has been piling up.. as usual.. till now.. the count wud be....

1. 3D photo Assignment
2. 3D Animation Assignment
4. 4 Short film/documentary/ Public Service Announcement/TVC Assignment

Well.. it might seem like lil.. but trust me.. its alot of work.. very ma fan la u noe.. especially all requires sum sort of detailed work.... Modelling a 3d model... checkin ur continuity on a film.. HO MA FAN!!!!

Things with me and my baby has been goin really good this pass month and a half... We have our lil misunderstandings but thats the usual la... its getting to noe each other ritual that every couple goes tru.. if ur in a relationship.. and u havent had a fight or misunderstanding.. R U FUCKING SURE THAT UR EVEN IN A RELATIPONSHIP???... *Ahem*... continuing... So far we have been good, me and ms. pinto... Loving her a lot... :D... cant Wait till the weekend is over to see her again..

hmm.. What else is there?... owh yea.. Movies....

Wen i was back in Kuantan.. Went To watch AVATAR in 3d wit my mum and youngest sis... Was a good movie.. good script... well done cinematography.. Kudos to you James Cameron... But i think i wud have prefer the normal version tho.. the 3d version wasnt up to my expectations...

Then this past week.. i watched "The Imagenarium of Dr. Parnassus".. Which was Heath Ledger's Last Movie... Very trippy movie... the Pot heads wud definitely love to watch this movie... The graphics we'rent so good but it was a not bad of a movie to watch... I also went to watch "Old Dogs".. Robin Wiliams and John Travolta.. A FREAKIN MUST WATCH!!... U'll Laugh ur Heart out the entire movie... really really good!! u guys shud go watch...

anyways... till next time la...

P.s... I LOVE U BABY!..

Satu Bulan....

Sudah satu bulan... 1 month exactly of my relationship with Ms. Jojo @ My Angel.... She's Been Great.. A Great Companion.. A Great Supporter... She's Smart... Funny... Daring... Loving.. and very very understanding... LOVE u so mUch... I hope there'll Be more anniversarries btwen me and her..:)

Been Goin to the Gym These past 2days.... Trying to Loose weight.. sudah 95KG weh!!!... Its like 10KG from my Form5 Form.. Really2 Shitz!.. Need to Loose All those fat... Hope To At least Do This New Year resolution... Need to Loose weight.. adn get a MP3 palyer.. cz no way i can exercise wit Stupid gay RnB Music!

Goin Bek This Friday... cant Wait Too See baby!!! 40hours 30min approx. to go..:)

And.. here's the 1st un-official couple photo..:)

Kuantan in the year 2010

Its January 3rd... And its my 3rd day here in Kuantan.. after 4months of not cmin bek... all i can say is... There is no freaking place like Kuantan.. :-D

Been eating non stop since i got here.. Wine, Mum's Cooking, PINEAPPLE TARTS!!!! MUMS FRUIT SALAD!!!.... So much for wanting to loose weight.. die la.. my baby see me means sure i gonna get tease like hell... gotta start exercising.. abit.. tmr.. hehehehe...

Went and watch Avatar in 3D tday wit my mum and sis.... It was a good movie.. but not the best movie for a 3D style... I wud Prefer watchin Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs in 3D.. more effects... More Fun..:D..

another 3more days and it wud be my 1st month anniversary wit my baby, Ms. Pinto..:D... havent seen her for 2weeks dy... missing her badly.. Cant Wait for this friday wen i go bek KL.. SO i can see her..:)... IM WAITING FOR U BABY!!! MISSING U!!!

owh.. on the 9th.. please come to Coco banana cz ill b Spinning there.. ITs sorta like an audition for a Dj position in a new club.. Will have to start wit RnB *sickening... like vomit sick*.. have to play... then will go faster till electro/house... and wen it raech house/electro.. im gonna rock the socks of till they die!!! muahahahahah... Death to Ah Bengs!!.. MUAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

OK ok.. PSycho period shall be kept till the 9th.... Hmm.. Havent gone to the Beach or Met my Frenz up yet... been busy eating.. hehehe.. mayb tmr onwards la..:) gotta visit my favourite Cyber cafe as well.. jz to continue my games there. wonder if its stil there or not.. hmmm..

anyways.. till next time.. LOVE U BABY!!!!.. MISSING U!!

What Time YOU Reaching ar??

Its 7.15am in the morning of the 29th of December... I havent slept the whole nitez.. Cudnt sleep... God Knows y.... I only noe i wont be goin out With Christine and Tina... SOrry guys.. :( .... And its really annoying knowing u hear the birds chirping outside ur window.. only becz u havent slept the whole nitez.. if i wake up and hear, den diff story la.. but still.. 7am la weh!!!.. AKU NAK TIDO NI!!!... TUHAN SELAMATKAN LA SAYA!!! T.T

*Deep Breathes*... ok ok... Enuf of Drama Pagi Ini.... so.. its been oficially 3weeks and 2days me and Ms.Pinto been together as a couple. She's with her family now so i cant see her much. Of cz, being how soon it is and the situation, her family doesnt noe yet la.. neither does mine.. but im gonna tell mine wen i go home... :)..... anyways... everyday has been a new discovery about me and her.. New things we find out, we things we learn (this is the process of getting to noe each other better... in case u guys are such noobs at communications)..... Met her Yesday at MPH.. tho i only to spend like 30mins wit her... but it was worth it to hold and kiss dat sum1 u really love dat u havent seen for a week.. LOVE U BABY!! :)

Well... Will be Goin Home This Friday... But i still have 3days of work to do.. jz to finish my contract... after that.. holiday... on the 8th ill be back here... and on the 9th... WOOOHOOO!!!!>.. i have my GIG/Audition at COCO Banana/Q-Bar as a DJ.... GOtta make a Living to SUpport my self la.... GOtta Burn Tonnes Of Cd's again... Gotta Be Prepare.. Gotta Rock the Crowd... WOOHOOO!!!

Life Rite now has been much relax.. much easier... thanks to my baby who is always there for me... Love u... lol.. yea yea.. i wont make u guys sick here.. not yet.. hehehe....

well.. till wen i have mood to rite again... ciowz.... and HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!... oo.. and this is my new Hair Cut!COmment la skit yea..:)

November 09 Trance Mix

After so long... now ny i uploading this.. isnt so good but its packed wit powerfull songs.. do take a listen..:)

November 09 Trance by Crazy Sinclair

1. DJ Tiesto - Century (ft. Calvin Harris)
2. Martin De Jong - Antartica (4Am Mix)
3. Sean Tyas - Seven weeks (Original Mix)
4. Alex M.O.R.P.H ft. Ana Criado - Sunset Boulevard (Original mix)
5. Ferry Corsten - We Belong (Tritonal Air Up There Mix)
6. RHCP vs AVB - Waiting For Freak (Christian Ketelaars Mashup)
7. Thomas Feijk and Jonas Hornblad ft. Sonja - Taxi Driver (Jonas Hornblad Mix)
8. BT - Rose Of Jericho (Virtual Vault Remix)
9. Paul Miller presents Motion Blur - Chieftec (Jonas Hornblad Mix)
10.DNS Project - Airbourne (Original Mix)
11.Dj Tiesto ft. Christian Burns - In The Dark (Radio Edit)

Home Is Where I Wanna Be

Its the 20th of december... normally i would already be back home by now. Sleeping on my bed, waking up to a green hill view, eating home cook food, chicken and mutton curry, the fruit salads and the apple pie... dam i miss my mums apple pie.... but... im stuck here in subang. Have work to do. Will only be finishing on the 31st. Worst part, this Fucking hotel management is releasing my half month pay late so guess wat... im broke for xmas.. i only have like 30bucks to spare for the next 5days at least... awesomeness?? i hope i survive...

From my last blog, in which i cut short, i actually found sum1... sum1 very special and dear to me.. i Found a new gf..:).. fell in love in jz 1week... and my life have been sumhow meaningfull after dat. She's very supportive. she's actually.. in a very weird way, a reflection of myself. THo i only knew her for 3weeks, but the chemistry we have makes us feel as though we've talked for a lifetime. I hope everything goes well wit us. Love her.. :)

Been working and running around town like a dog all this while. Work, Helping my baby in her college project, My battle of the Bands thingy. Crazy la... Battle of the bands, my band got 6th place but every1 told us if it wasnt for the voting system, we'd al least won 2nd place hands down..:)....

Xmas is almost near... 5more days.. will be playing the drums for christmas eve mass at church.. But miss my family.. and my baby especially...well, ill see my gal in 3weeks and my family in 2weeks..patience!

Last Thursday was amazing.... Had a very crazy day.. from the start till the end... had to calm my baby cz she locked her self outside her own home (bloody locksmith cost us 60bucks jz to pick the lock... such an a$$)... den went to my work place wit her.. had dinner... after work went upstairs to the club... dance like crazy... went bek home... had a whole bottle of wine within 15mins.. (talk about alcoholics... they aint got shit on us..XD).... and jz slept the whole nite tru.. amazing day... beautifull day wen u wake up seeing the gal u love beside u..:)

Till den.. i leave u guys with this Xmas poem...

Summer Has Turned To winter,
Xmas Is Near Its Time To Cheer,
I Hold your hand IN the Cool Nights,
Snow Fall Are Such A Beautifull Sight,
Santa Busy Prepating His Gifts,
The World Awaits Him In da Snowy Mist,
Xmas Is Near And Im Anxious,
To Tell You The Truth Im a Lil Nervous,
To See Wether Im Naughty Or Nice,
Will I get Sugar or a Rotten Mice