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February... HAPPY CNY!!! VALENTINES MONTH!!! WORKING MY ASS OFF MONTH!!!

Currently im working in a club and as we speak they're having sum bollywood nite so im pretty much free to do stuff.. and since a ding dong has been fucking pestering me to update this nonsense, so here i am updating it.

WORK

has been good i guess.. as i said earlier.. i am currently working in a Club as a DJ. VOgue club in MOnt Kiara.. pretty decent. And a good start since my debt are always sky muthafucking high.. there's a lot of parties here so i dun have much job to do anyways. Just finish A FIlm Production wit john and rob a.k.a the old crew. Lots of internal drama this time so it wasnt as decent as the last wan. But all is good. finish the movie and now waitinf to finally see the dam finish project.

Life

Well, life like dat lor.. room still a bit messy but its not dirty. IM a organised messed :D.. with the job goin on, my life been the usual insomniac style.. my sleep time is people work time 9am-5pm.. With al my free nite time, i have finish season1 of Criminal mind and Season5 of One tree hill within 3days... i still have House Season 2 and 3 to finish so im giving it 3-4days to finish both of it..

Relationships

Well, it has been fairly ok, i guess. being i only get to talk to her at nite since she's now at her home town celebratin CNY... its ok la.. considering wat me and her been tru, we'l survive.. i appreciate her a lot. jz hope she feels the same.. wish she was much stronger.. and i was much richer. den again, i hate being rich. I love my lifestyle. yes, being rich i can live like king but i oso noe ill spend for no reason. so y the hell for? but for this year, as long im wit this job, ill be fine. jz no more last minute emergency please..

P.s I HATE GOD!! religion dun mean anythin to me anymore. We are the destiny of our own faith. Fuck him who says we should worship alone. FUckin narcistic Bitch. I believe in the goodness and goodwill...

I believe i'll forever be a loner. so fuck if i care bout that cunt up there..

care

as much pf a perfectly rich life i may display to every1...

im broke... i dun have much...

and no1 cares.. NOT A FUCKING SOUL!.... so why do i bother?..


even i dunno.....

anyways.. jz here to say...

NO1 fucking cares.. not a Single fucking soul

feeling down

as the title says... once again.. im feeling down... due to a few circumstances of cz...

1. money... i owe a few "companies" money.. mainly my college and my old telco line.. havent paid my house rent in 4months. well.. to make things in a summary... i need a total of 3K to settle every single debt i have... WHERE THE FUCK AM I GONNA GET 3k.. everyday i wake up scared.. scared i might be kicked out of my place.. be a hobo, a bum, a fucking homeless loser... IM broke... and i didnt choose this lifestyle..

2. people ... people here have no u.standing towards my feeling.. they always feel they're feeling are more important than mine.. so they scream, pour get frustrated over their small and impudent little matters and i am their so call "listener".. well, fuck!.. if ur gonna tell me dat ur dying or cancer or u have debt like me at that young of age or anything in dire need of attention, den by all means i will b sympathetic.. but if ur gonna tell me ur cat of 3days died or ur fren is in america doing they're dream, WATTAFUCK!?... shit, once or twice is fine.. but every single fucking day of the week... shit.. i have others things to think about like MY FUCKING ROOF OVER MY FUCKING HEAD! shit..

3.RAIN.. wattafuck is wroing wit u Mr.Rain?... why u always pour like a muthafucka wen ever i need to go out of the house???... u could have rain yesterday, u cud rain like a fucking bitch having a squirting fit last week but NOOOOO... u jz had to rain wen ever i needed to go out for my interviews... STUPID FUCKFACE IDIOT FAGGOT FUCKING MUTHAFUCKER!! HOPE U BURN IN HEAVENLY TEARS!!!


FUCK!! IM JZ SO PISSED!! PEOPLE! MONEY!! Y THE FUCK WONT U JX LEAVE ME ALONE OR EVEN THINK ABOUT MY FEELINGS U FUCKING CRUEL ASSHOLES!.. I've tried playing mr.nice. but u keep stepping on my head... but not anymore.. im mr.sadist nw.. im fucking u up wenever u try to kick my ass...


ARGHH!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! FUCK EACH AND EVERY1 OF U!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! FUCK FUCKIN MUTHA SON A FUCKING CUNT!! ARRGHHHH!!!!

Use the force.

Its 4am now.... really tired... writing this becz i suppose to write 1 earlier... but net was bad.. so.. i write a bit now.. write only becz my baby wanted my too.. and jz for her.. im gonna say..

I LOVE U BABY!!!! ANother 10days and OUR relationship jz had a baby! XD.. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

21st.... so?

well.. today was my 21st burfday... and here are the awesome list of things i did..

-50sit ups
-35pumps

- ate 4 bbq chicken wings
- 20 satays
- 1 murtabak

- watch 2episodes of One tree hill (most probably 5more episodes will b watch tonite)
- on9 (Facebook, neopets)
- sit
- feel bored

(all of this done alone... jz to rub it in) :D

well.. that pretty much sums up the BIG TWO ONE....

pretty much the most boring burfday's i've and i guess among the worse...

well.. got 1more year to see wether next year burfday and how it turns out..

hopes its much better..




ciow

happy 21?... dun think so

another 15 mins i shall be 21 years old... yet i feel the same way i was 6months ago.. broke!

No parties, no casino, no drinking no nothing.. nada! not on my 21st burfday.

i thought at least i wud be wit my frenz.. the only routine ill b having is sleeping at 7am.. waking up at 3pm.. watchin a movie.. eating... dun feel like goin out wit tina or chris anymore..

I rather be alone on my burfday, since my significant other wont be there.. y bother at all?..


so... a very "merry" burfday to me... 21 years old??... its all the same...

life and how things are

My Life rite now is at a stand still, though, i am alredy 6feet deep in debts. Telco line and my apartment rent... i need Rm2700 to clear everything off... its messed up... my burfday comin up in a week and in the beginning of the year, i tot i wud be at least wit a job by now, a proper paying wan and has sumthing to do wit my line of study. Till now, im beyond broke, my Dj line hasnt evolve. Jz the random gigs here and there dat doesnt pay enuf.. or doesnt pay at all for that matter. Life on monetary issues wit me.. well, has been in the toilet and flushed down.

As for my job hunting, well, mayb im too proud or was jz too happy wit the pay i used to get, but i cant get a descent job. Yes, mayb i have been asking alot but i jz wanna work sumthing in my line of work. I duwan to go bek working promoter or waiter, its annoying, u work like a dog and get a slave salary. Shit, i rather work as a Gigolo dat way. Thank God I have a gf to remind me that im her property.

I was woken today morning by my gf call. Things happen to her at home and after calming her down, i was thinking, what is maturity? Does ur age makes u mature? does ur freedom makes ur mature? Well, i got to thinking and i realise is maturity is standing up for wat u believe in and owning up to responsibilty. People say the older u go the wiser u get. I disagree wit that statement. Its wat u go tru in life, its wat u see, its how u see it and wat u learn from it is wat make u mature. I, Personally, havent seen much in life but i noe wat's my rights and wat I believe. Im not trying to say im matured, cz at times i am still a child but seeing the people around in the world today, im proud to say i have better common sense than sum people.

Back to my DJ-ing life, ON9, My Dj Mixes are doing great. Average of 300listeners per track. IM proud of that. But being state of emergency in Commercial music that plays here in Malaysia, they wan RnB.. FUCK RNB! i have nothing against it, but i hate mixing it.... it suxs... and ita annoying.. WHY THE HELL wud i wanna paly the same shit u hear on the radio?.. like the Exact Same Version?.. ARent YOU FUCKING BORED OF IT??... i had this girl ask me to play the Whole LAdy Gaga Album at one of my event... WTF?.. are we there to Worship that ho?.. no!... so fuck u.. IF i have the song, i'll play 1 song for u or 2 if im feeling generous and dat's about it...

*ahem*.... ok... now dat we've gotten that out the way... Im Always been a Fast and hard Feng tao kaki.. tease me all u wan but shit like groove coverage and Dj Aligator is wat got me into Dance music.. I play weird stuff but only because its good. I Dun stereotype music. Yes, I have been in a Hip Hop Crew, Breakdancing, Beatboxing and rapping. Yes, i Listen to metal, Most pit and head bang. And yes, i am a Dj. I Play music dat i like. U name it and ill play it for u. I'll even play marching songs if i thnks its good. I love music. Music is life to me and has always been.

Well, to conclude this nonsense u've been hearing for me all this while. Age does not make u mature. I HATE MIXING RNB!.. IM BROKE!... I LOVE MUSIC THOUGH!... and after 8months, Im still madly in love wit my gf. So, to u, Ms. Joann Joanna Pinto, who has supported me, Got on my Bitch Duty, Heard and went tru my pains of Indianhood,haha, and for staying tru wit me no matter wat happens, i wanna say I love you and i thank you for being there for me everyday of this 8months and hopefully u'll b there Till we part ways above. I love You.


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