MINISTER OF SINISTER

UPDATING!

2011-02-03T21:25:00.004+08:00

February... HAPPY CNY!!! VALENTINES MONTH!!! WORKING MY ASS OFF MONTH!!!

Currently im working in a club and as we speak they're having sum bollywood nite so im pretty much free to do stuff.. and since a ding dong has been fucking pestering me to update this nonsense, so here i am updating it.

WORK

has been good i guess.. as i said earlier.. i am currently working in a Club as a DJ. VOgue club in MOnt Kiara.. pretty decent. And a good start since my debt are always sky muthafucking high.. there's a lot of parties here so i dun have much job to do anyways. Just finish A FIlm Production wit john and rob a.k.a the old crew. Lots of internal drama this time so it wasnt as decent as the last wan. But all is good. finish the movie and now waitinf to finally see the dam finish project.

Life

Well, life like dat lor.. room still a bit messy but its not dirty. IM a organised messed :D.. with the job goin on, my life been the usual insomniac style.. my sleep time is people work time 9am-5pm.. With al my free nite time, i have finish season1 of Criminal mind and Season5 of One tree hill within 3days... i still have House Season 2 and 3 to finish so im giving it 3-4days to finish both of it..

Relationships

Well, it has been fairly ok, i guess. being i only get to talk to her at nite since she's now at her home town celebratin CNY... its ok la.. considering wat me and her been tru, we'l survive.. i appreciate her a lot. jz hope she feels the same.. wish she was much stronger.. and i was much richer. den again, i hate being rich. I love my lifestyle. yes, being rich i can live like king but i oso noe ill spend for no reason. so y the hell for? but for this year, as long im wit this job, ill be fine. jz no more last minute emergency please..

P.s I HATE GOD!! religion dun mean anythin to me anymore. We are the destiny of our own faith. Fuck him who says we should worship alone. FUckin narcistic Bitch. I believe in the goodness and goodwill...

I believe i'll forever be a loner. so fuck if i care bout that cunt up there..

care

2010-11-20T22:14:00.001+08:00

as much pf a perfectly rich life i may display to every1...

im broke... i dun have much...

and no1 cares.. NOT A FUCKING SOUL!.... so why do i bother?..

even i dunno.....

anyways.. jz here to say...

NO1 fucking cares.. not a Single fucking soul

feeling down

2010-09-25T21:58:00.002+08:00

as the title says... once again.. im feeling down... due to a few circumstances of cz...

1. money... i owe a few "companies" money.. mainly my college and my old telco line.. havent paid my house rent in 4months. well.. to make things in a summary... i need a total of 3K to settle every single debt i have... WHERE THE FUCK AM I GONNA GET 3k.. everyday i wake up scared.. scared i might be kicked out of my place.. be a hobo, a bum, a fucking homeless loser... IM broke... and i didnt choose this lifestyle..

2. people ... people here have no u.standing towards my feeling.. they always feel they're feeling are more important than mine.. so they scream, pour get frustrated over their small and impudent little matters and i am their so call "listener".. well, fuck!.. if ur gonna tell me dat ur dying or cancer or u have debt like me at that young of age or anything in dire need of attention, den by all means i will b sympathetic.. but if ur gonna tell me ur cat of 3days died or ur fren is in america doing they're dream, WATTAFUCK!?... shit, once or twice is fine.. but every single fucking day of the week... shit.. i have others things to think about like MY FUCKING ROOF OVER MY FUCKING HEAD! shit..

3.RAIN.. wattafuck is wroing wit u Mr.Rain?... why u always pour like a muthafucka wen ever i need to go out of the house???... u could have rain yesterday, u cud rain like a fucking bitch having a squirting fit last week but NOOOOO... u jz had to rain wen ever i needed to go out for my interviews... STUPID FUCKFACE IDIOT FAGGOT FUCKING MUTHAFUCKER!! HOPE U BURN IN HEAVENLY TEARS!!!

FUCK!! IM JZ SO PISSED!! PEOPLE! MONEY!! Y THE FUCK WONT U JX LEAVE ME ALONE OR EVEN THINK ABOUT MY FEELINGS U FUCKING CRUEL ASSHOLES!.. I've tried playing mr.nice. but u keep stepping on my head... but not anymore.. im mr.sadist nw.. im fucking u up wenever u try to kick my ass...

ARGHH!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! FUCK EACH AND EVERY1 OF U!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! FUCK FUCKIN MUTHA SON A FUCKING CUNT!! ARRGHHHH!!!!

Use the force.

2010-08-28T03:56:00.002+08:00

Its 4am now.... really tired... writing this becz i suppose to write 1 earlier... but net was bad.. so.. i write a bit now.. write only becz my baby wanted my too.. and jz for her.. im gonna say..

I LOVE U BABY!!!! ANother 10days and OUR relationship jz had a baby! XD.. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

21st.... so?

2010-08-17T23:49:00.003+08:00

well.. today was my 21st burfday... and here are the awesome list of things i did..

-50sit ups
-35pumps

- ate 4 bbq chicken wings
- 20 satays
- 1 murtabak

- watch 2episodes of One tree hill (most probably 5more episodes will b watch tonite)
- on9 (Facebook, neopets)
- sit
- feel bored

(all of this done alone... jz to rub it in) :D

well.. that pretty much sums up the BIG TWO ONE....

pretty much the most boring burfday's i've and i guess among the worse...

well.. got 1more year to see wether next year burfday and how it turns out..

hopes its much better..

ciow

happy 21?... dun think so

2010-08-16T23:37:00.002+08:00

another 15 mins i shall be 21 years old... yet i feel the same way i was 6months ago.. broke!

No parties, no casino, no drinking no nothing.. nada! not on my 21st burfday.

i thought at least i wud be wit my frenz.. the only routine ill b having is sleeping at 7am.. waking up at 3pm.. watchin a movie.. eating... dun feel like goin out wit tina or chris anymore..

I rather be alone on my burfday, since my significant other wont be there.. y bother at all?..

so... a very "merry" burfday to me... 21 years old??... its all the same...

life and how things are

2010-08-12T01:25:00.003+08:00

My Life rite now is at a stand still, though, i am alredy 6feet deep in debts. Telco line and my apartment rent... i need Rm2700 to clear everything off... its messed up... my burfday comin up in a week and in the beginning of the year, i tot i wud be at least wit a job by now, a proper paying wan and has sumthing to do wit my line of study. Till now, im beyond broke, my Dj line hasnt evolve. Jz the random gigs here and there dat doesnt pay enuf.. or doesnt pay at all for that matter. Life on monetary issues wit me.. well, has been in the toilet and flushed down.

As for my job hunting, well, mayb im too proud or was jz too happy wit the pay i used to get, but i cant get a descent job. Yes, mayb i have been asking alot but i jz wanna work sumthing in my line of work. I duwan to go bek working promoter or waiter, its annoying, u work like a dog and get a slave salary. Shit, i rather work as a Gigolo dat way. Thank God I have a gf to remind me that im her property.

I was woken today morning by my gf call. Things happen to her at home and after calming her down, i was thinking, what is maturity? Does ur age makes u mature? does ur freedom makes ur mature? Well, i got to thinking and i realise is maturity is standing up for wat u believe in and owning up to responsibilty. People say the older u go the wiser u get. I disagree wit that statement. Its wat u go tru in life, its wat u see, its how u see it and wat u learn from it is wat make u mature. I, Personally, havent seen much in life but i noe wat's my rights and wat I believe. Im not trying to say im matured, cz at times i am still a child but seeing the people around in the world today, im proud to say i have better common sense than sum people.

Back to my DJ-ing life, ON9, My Dj Mixes are doing great. Average of 300listeners per track. IM proud of that. But being state of emergency in Commercial music that plays here in Malaysia, they wan RnB.. FUCK RNB! i have nothing against it, but i hate mixing it.... it suxs... and ita annoying.. WHY THE HELL wud i wanna paly the same shit u hear on the radio?.. like the Exact Same Version?.. ARent YOU FUCKING BORED OF IT??... i had this girl ask me to play the Whole LAdy Gaga Album at one of my event... WTF?.. are we there to Worship that ho?.. no!... so fuck u.. IF i have the song, i'll play 1 song for u or 2 if im feeling generous and dat's about it...

*ahem*.... ok... now dat we've gotten that out the way... Im Always been a Fast and hard Feng tao kaki.. tease me all u wan but shit like groove coverage and Dj Aligator is wat got me into Dance music.. I play weird stuff but only because its good. I Dun stereotype music. Yes, I have been in a Hip Hop Crew, Breakdancing, Beatboxing and rapping. Yes, i Listen to metal, Most pit and head bang. And yes, i am a Dj. I Play music dat i like. U name it and ill play it for u. I'll even play marching songs if i thnks its good. I love music. Music is life to me and has always been.

Well, to conclude this nonsense u've been hearing for me all this while. Age does not make u mature. I HATE MIXING RNB!.. IM BROKE!... I LOVE MUSIC THOUGH!... and after 8months, Im still madly in love wit my gf. So, to u, Ms. Joann Joanna Pinto, who has supported me, Got on my Bitch Duty, Heard and went tru my pains of Indianhood,haha, and for staying tru wit me no matter wat happens, i wanna say I love you and i thank you for being there for me everyday of this 8months and hopefully u'll b there Till we part ways above. I love You.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plqJ2ItfFhQ

No Idea

2010-08-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

trouble you , trouble me,
your troubles tears me apart,
darknesss deep,
restlessness creep,
how to sleep wen u weep,
water flows yet none to drink,
tears roll down wen eyes are blinked,

wish i was there to hold u tight,
and tell you everything is alrite,
throughout the nightn i feel weary,
for my strenght is passed to u dearly,
yet for u i shall give my life,
for you i will sacrifice,
for you i shall roll the dice,
for i am nothing but dust,
ashes to ashes from dawn till dusk,
i pray for u to be strong at last.

No YOU, NO I,
only WE resides.
the life we live
and everything inside,
The Hope, The Dream,
Of You And Me Combine,
The Moon The Stars,
i pray for US to be together in Mars.

jz for you

2010-08-02T18:48:00.002+08:00

Being with you is always great,
in you i shall always see my soulmate,
the rain the wind and the all nite chat,
the best memories of our wonderfull 1st date,

8 months has passed and we're closer den ever,
from december to augst we are still lover's,
loving u is the best dat's happened,
hope it last till we're both i heaven,

this may be lame for i am rusty,
my poetic skill are a lil dusty,
but still i try to write for u,
cz there's nothing i can say but i love you.

Leonard Sinclair

2010-08-01T04:16:00.002+08:00

leonard

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A smart-alec who uses the of cover of "quiet kid" to really suprise people when his true evil nature bursts through the top. Along with that, a harsh critic and demonic leader, capable of driving people over the edge of insanity with his hypnotic skill. Simply a genius, a vulgar, crude-mouthed, explicit, triple X and none-to-gentle genius, but a genius none-the-less.

Kid 1: Wow, that guy just nearly made those girls kill themselves!

Kid 2: He's probably a Leonard...

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Leonard

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The disposition of a lion; lion-hearted; from Leon, a lion, and ard, Teutonic, nature, disposition. German origin.

Leonard’s are known to be fiercely loyal, dependable and upholds the ideals of truth and justice. Leonard’s possess extreme analytical minds and an uncanny ability to know when they are being deceived or lied to. Most Leonard’s are physicists, engineers or in some capacity of the intelligence community. On a more disturbing note, the criminal Leonards, although few in numbers are true masterminds, nefarious and almost impossible to arrest and convict. They love to work with their hands and are able to fix anything. Leonard is the most common name in the science community.

They love to laugh, are self-effacing, witty, smart, cunning and methodical. They have a way of finding joy in all. They are very practical and level headed. They are the most passionate amazing lovers and will always take care of the woman they are with. Most men in the Pornography industry's birth name was Leonard. Leonard is the man every man aspires to be and every woman desires.

I thought I out-smarted him until he pulled a Leonard on me, I knew I had been defeated.

synonyms: masculine omnipotent lion hearted awe-inspiring clever.
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Leonard

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1:A black male who usually has a large and thick cock but doesn't brag about it.

2:A guy who doesn't brag alot.

Example 1
Girl: Girl his cock was so huge and thick. I think his name was dark chocolate.
Girl 2: Naw he's got to be a Leonard.

Example 2
Guy: I bet that kids name is Leoanrd!
Guy 2: Why?
Guy: Cause he never brags about anything!!

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Leonard

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Lion heart, brave as a lion, German, heart, Latin , Leo, lion

strong, faithful, brave and self sacrificing. Usually a person of great moral integrity who is similar in believe as Leonidas, of ancient Greek 300 fame.

That Leonard saved my life and my nation.

I wish I could Leonard like Braveheart.

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Leonard

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A good friend to have. Extremely loyal & giving but have to be
stabbed in the back. Will go above and beyond to help complete strangers.
Usually well mannered with a tendency for occasional, unexpected outbursts
of rudeness or insensitivity. Can be quite funny and good at uplifting others
stuck in a rut, but careful at choosing when to be serious or joke. A dependable friend.

Terry: "Leonard is always on time for work and hasn't missed a day of work in 4 years."

Susan: "If only everyone were as punctual this business would be more successful."

Rachel: I just can't wait to see Leonard today, he's so sweet.

Megan: "He is really nice. I hear him compliment you all the time."

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Leonard

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Lion Heart
brave as a lion
one who sacrifices his own safety for that of his family and friends

Braveheart was a real Leonard

That Leonard saved my life.

hero warrior lion heart king
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(noun) german name meaning Brave as Lion. Leonard is the most wonderful and amazing guy you could ever meet. He is perfect in ever way and with each passing moment you will fall more and more in love with as you discover that he truly is the most unique and lovable person you have ever met. He is a truthful, honest person who is on a search from something special in life. he is very popular, incredibly funny, sexy beyond description and so sweet he'll make you feel like the most special girl in his life. He gives the greatest hugs, knows exactly what to say to cheer you up, kisses passionately and being in the same room as him will send shivers and tingles down your entire body. He is sincere, trustworthy and romantic, sexy. Many girls adore him because he's just so beautiful on the inside and outside. He searches for his soulmate, a lady he can trust, who will love him with all her heart. And she will know when she meets him. her heart tells her and her body feels weak with overwhelming feelings of joy. He is the man you know you want to marry because he's the man you love with each fiber of your body. You can't imagine life without him and no matter how much you say that, it can't reflect how you feel about Leonard. he has an adventurous spirit and loves sports, spending time with nature and spending quality time with his family and friends. He's someone you would love to go fishing with, hunting. everything. He's someone you love and he's and amazingly perfect perfect.

A gorgeous person who is overbrimming with love for life. He is a best friend a soul mate for life.Forever. Lovable. Stunning. Amazing. Intelligent. Perfect. Gorgeous. Indescribable.

ex 1
guy 1: that guy is awesome. he's the best friend i've ever had. he would give his life for his mates! he's dope
guy 2: i know man, he's someone to look up to.

ex 2
girl 1: who is that amazing guy fishing and listening to his ipod?
girl 2: that's leondard... i am in love with him. completely

Leonard will leave you breathless and in love with him. An amazing spirit, a beautiful soul, an amazing companion. He is the love that gives you faith in love.

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Semi-erection of the penis

"He woke up sporting a rather splendid leonard"

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A Sneaky Bastard.

That sneaky bastard Leonard took Shorty down to the Attorney so He could change his will.

That Bastard Leonard would Fuck his own mother for a Nickel!

I pulled a real Leonard on her and went out with the other chica.

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Leonard

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A Simpleton, one who is not fully aware of the goings on of the world, aka a nancy-boy, in general it is someone who isn't "cool" by definition

Simon is a serious leonard, honestly he's king of the lenny's

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1.Lion cum. Derives from Leo meaning 'lion' and nard meaning 'ointment'.
2.Sometimes used to refer to a man who pretends to like women, but is actually a bum lover.
3.Can also just be a man's name, but this is rare.

1."You taste like Leonard."
2. "Why have you never had a girlfriend? Are you a Leonard?"
3."You're rubbish at pool, Leonard."

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A girl that acts like a slut but has had sex with less than 10 people.

That bitch jeff fucked is a leonard, but didnt know how to get butt sex

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	buy sinclair mugs, tshirts and magnets A born leader although not obvious. But due to his curious and giving nature, and his imagination, he is able to focus and listen and give of himself, something someone so young doesn't normally possesess. Wise beyond his years. King Arthur was such a Sinclair. Percey Jackson was modeled after a true Sinclair. honest loyal curious kind truthful by Synda May 22, 2010 share this

The word FUck...

2010-07-31T02:09:00.001+08:00

its an old video... but i believe this wud teach people how to use this word..

Hope u have a great lesson... thank you..

have a great FUCKING nite

i love..

2010-06-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU BABY>>>> I LOVE YOU MISS JOANN JOANNA PINTO!!!

NEW MIX!!! PODCAST #001

2010-04-20T20:03:00.001+08:00

my new podcast... have a listen!!

DJ Sharky Podcast 001 by Crazy Sinclair
Tracklist

1. Andreas Henneberg - Bolingo Grigo (Original Mix)
2. Ronte Monte Mo - Katrin Malt
3. Doodge & Viper ft. Tag Team - Whoomp (Housecat Mix)
4. Bob Sinclair & Dirty South - Russian March (Funk D Mix)
5. Rafa Peralta - Scratch (Victor Magan Mix)
6. B.E.P - I Gotta Feeling ( Pat Farrell Mix)
7. Perplexer Vs Cyrus - Back With Pipes (Ph Electro Mix)
8. Sash ft. Stunt - Raindrops 2010 (Electro mix)
9. GRUM - Go Back (Le Castle Vania mix)
10.DMX - Where The Hood At (Nate River And Monkey D luffy mix)
11.Scotty - Let The Beat Hit Em (Saxxy Dub Mix)
12.AutoKratz - Always More (Yuksek Mix)
13.The Prodigy - Omen (Dirty Disco Youth Mix)
14.D'azoo At Night - San Francisco 2010 (Dirty Bass Project mix)
15.FLIP - Stomp (All Night) (Aboutblank & KLC mix)
16.Designer Drugs - Zombies!
17.Blur - Song2 (Mickey Slim's yeah To The Woo Booty Mix)

Of Jealousy and Goobyes

2010-04-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

Well...as usual.. this mother fucker did it again.... he pissed off sum1 and had an arguement...

feeling like crap.. as usual... haiz.... i hate myself.... then again.. wat am i suppose to do..

Well.. just to be a normal person... im gonna sign off for now...

GOOD FUCKING BYE!!!!

Bored Week

2010-02-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

Twas the weekend of Chinese New year... Not Any Chinese New Year for it was the same day as Valentines day.... And Poor Lil Sharky was alone at home.
THe Sky was Bright, but his room was dark,
Giving Sharky Little Luck,
Boredness Occur, Slowly By Slowly,
Driving to madness he went Deeply,

Eating Cornflakes and Nestum,
He Sit alone In his asylum,
Watching Movies and Making Mixes,
but still he felt the most bored-est,

In a Far Away land,
Stayed His Beautifull Princess,
Sort after by every man,
Even lil Sharky was impress,

She was His valentine,
But they werent together, not this time,
He was missing his baby,
His heart was getting heavy,

Bored at home,
He became lame,
He sat at home doin the same,
Eating sleeping and playing game,

Now Its Lent Season In Church,
Feeling Holy he decided to fast,
And needed he to hold his curse,
and hopind every week to go for mass.

Last but not least he needs his cash,
Not too lil but at least a small stash,
now his bills are in a mess,
And he needs t release a lil stress.

So till den dear frenz,
he need to go and clean his lenz,
while the rain fall outside,
the lil birdie fall and died.
(wtf weh?)

Knee deep in Shitz

2010-02-03T01:44:00.002+08:00

Updating cz sum1 is forcing me too,... no fair....XD

Well.. as u saw from my last post... i am in reall deep shitz.... still..

I finally got a job... rather shitty pay but its a jjob none the less... working at Tony Romas Sunway.. 4Bucks/hour... Pretty ok.. but shitty if ur in my shoes wit tonnes of bills to pay...

Is hating clubs at the moment for there FUCKING CIBAI MORONIC AH BENGS AND AH LIAN CANT TELL THE DIFFERENCE OF RNB AND HIP HOP!!... GO STUDY MUSIC U STUPID GAY FUCK FACE MOTHER FUKERS>..

*ahem*...on the other side.. waiting to spin at Bui Yen party this saturday... free flow... and i noe there will b great music.. not only cz i'll b playing.. but many other Dj's dat play good music will be there... its so gonna be a blast.. and partying till 6am.. where else can u do dat... suck that u Hip hop confuse idiots!

wel.. duwan say too much... really really tired... wanna talk to sum1 and go sleep... nitez..

In Real Deep Shitz

2010-01-23T09:14:00.002+08:00

its now 9.14am on a saturday morning... im still at college since i overnited for Dj-ing and i havent slept for 24hours literally... Been a really exhausting day... Very emotional and physically tiring.
Im jz waiting for Amri or Khairul ( Our College technical supervisors) to come in so i can sign out the Dj room key... I wish they come sooner....

As u can see from the title... im in real shitz... Life isnt beautifull with me at the moment... matter in fact... its brutal... Its like hitler's soul jz came down from heaven and im its prey for fun... Feeling wat im feeling isnt good... Though it needed me to be in this state to be thinking a lot... I still hate the feeling and the fact of where i am... Life is Unfair.. Life is a bitch.. life is a Dick... You Fuck or get fucked.. well, apparently, judging by how my life is now.... Im mother nature's lil bitch... There goes wat's left of my dignity.... *Sits in a corner and go emo*....

For those of asking... What are my problems?... well.. let me explain to u...

The 1st... and always... IS Money.... im in actually In real shit wit money... For the Room that im gonna rent from college admins... That'll cost me Rm660 the 1st month plus deposit and utilities... Im almost broke now and i duwan to ask my parents for money for the room.. i told them i cud manage and i will...... sum how... i dunno.. but i have to.... The room is Rm280 per month... pretty alrite since it comes wit an air con. I dun mind la... JZ need to pay the 1st month den i can manage my way tru... Wondering where to Cough up Rm600 at least.. for the room... haiz..... Then.. MY Phone bill.... Its off the roof... cz i've been calling my gf.... she's using Digi.. so u noe la... How much my bill?.. hmmmm... i rather u not noe... but it is pretty high... so.. adding that to the room rent.... u noe wat that means rite?... it means I.... A.M... F.U.C.K.E.D!!! Where can i get money??.. GOd.. PLease save me...

Then the 2nd shitz dat im in... and the worst wan... My gf and I will be breaking up... ok ok.. relax people... dun get shocked... or a heart attack.. breathe.. breathe... feeling better?.. ok.. good.. let me explain.... U See... My Gf mum doesnt wan my baby to date while in college... for sum reasons... * Choose any reason that parents always give their children to not date wen in an education system*..... Seeing my baby tear up in front of me was enuf.... cz i didnt wan her to disapoint her mum *not to mention the mum threaten my baby by puling her out of college if she dis-obeys*.. I rather she continue with her life and be succesfull instead of hangin on to me, sum1 dat might not be even to provide for her...

SO we decided to break... jz for the moment. and when i say moment.. i meant 3years or till she finish studyin, which ever comes last.... Monday will be the day we are officially un-tied to each other.... And the thought of it jz scares me... What if sum guy comes in and sweep my baby's feet away? what if in btwn of distance, we no longer feel wat we're currently feeling for each other?.. I noe, i noe... u might be thinking im jz paranoid and the lack of sleep is increasing my "dream machine" work load... but im still "sober-headed"... i noe wat im thinking... 1month, 2weeks and 3days it has been.... and another 2days is all we have to say i love you's... hug each other.. kiss each other...hold hands in public.. 48hours is all we have... 48hours is all i have before i go bek into my prison.. singlehood.... yes yes.. i noe... but im like dat... i love being attached... not a big fan of singlehood... call me an old uncle but thats how i am... Damn... my head hurts... Where the hell are this people to get me out of college!!!

Im Currently looking for a job... need to support my spending... especially my room and utilities..
Wonder if any has a job to offer?>. anything... i'll take anything u give.....

ok ok.. i better stop.. my head hurts... i feel like crying.. literally... in a real dilemma and i have no more strength... im jz squeezing wat ever i have left of me to carry on... I need a hug... i need my baby back.... Doesnt this jz seem so unfair?... y does all my relationship has sum sort of weird parents saying no.. not even a disagreement.. a straight up BIG NO NO!!!.. arrrgghh!!.. wat am i to do???.. haiz... nvm,,, we'll see how this goes.. till den... :(

Jobless Week 1

2010-01-16T22:08:00.003+08:00

Well... its been 10days since my last post.... lots of things has happened in btwn... ups and down.. fun and frowns... Life's been lazy and fattening... i noe the weight i lost during the Gym-ing days at Kuantan has been re-gained... So need to start my gym-ing again... haiz....

Well, The Audition at Coco Banana Didnt go so well as i didnt get the job. Though i did rock the crowd, apparently my mixing wAsnt good enuf for them... well... i didnt wanna argue... so i jz said thank you for the chance.. they said jz improve on mixing and come bek again next time... in which i will...So this leave's me jobless for this month for now... i Had a bad feeling all of the sudden.. jz didnt feel rite at 1 point.. i feel bad cz my baby had to see me go tru it... it made her a lil uncomfortable and i wished i held it bek more.. sorry baby... but we all have our demons...

College... The 7th Sem... The FINAL sem has started.... its a lil empty cz the classes are only in the morning... Been ok la.. only that waking up in the morning is such a bitch.. but ill get used to it.. sum how...

Assignments has been piling up.. as usual.. till now.. the count wud be....

1. 3D photo Assignment
2. 3D Animation Assignment
4. 4 Short film/documentary/ Public Service Announcement/TVC Assignment

Well.. it might seem like lil.. but trust me.. its alot of work.. very ma fan la u noe.. especially all requires sum sort of detailed work.... Modelling a 3d model... checkin ur continuity on a film.. HO MA FAN!!!!

Things with me and my baby has been goin really good this pass month and a half... We have our lil misunderstandings but thats the usual la... its getting to noe each other ritual that every couple goes tru.. if ur in a relationship.. and u havent had a fight or misunderstanding.. R U FUCKING SURE THAT UR EVEN IN A RELATIPONSHIP???... *Ahem*... continuing... So far we have been good, me and ms. pinto... Loving her a lot... :D... cant Wait till the weekend is over to see her again..

hmm.. What else is there?... owh yea.. Movies....

Wen i was back in Kuantan.. Went To watch AVATAR in 3d wit my mum and youngest sis... Was a good movie.. good script... well done cinematography.. Kudos to you James Cameron... But i think i wud have prefer the normal version tho.. the 3d version wasnt up to my expectations...

Then this past week.. i watched "The Imagenarium of Dr. Parnassus".. Which was Heath Ledger's Last Movie... Very trippy movie... the Pot heads wud definitely love to watch this movie... The graphics we'rent so good but it was a not bad of a movie to watch... I also went to watch "Old Dogs".. Robin Wiliams and John Travolta.. A FREAKIN MUST WATCH!!... U'll Laugh ur Heart out the entire movie... really really good!! u guys shud go watch...

anyways... till next time la...

P.s... I LOVE U BABY!..

Satu Bulan....

2010-01-06T21:24:00.003+08:00

Sudah satu bulan... 1 month exactly of my relationship with Ms. Jojo @ My Angel.... She's Been Great.. A Great Companion.. A Great Supporter... She's Smart... Funny... Daring... Loving.. and very very understanding... LOVE u so mUch... I hope there'll Be more anniversarries btwen me and her..:)

Been Goin to the Gym These past 2days.... Trying to Loose weight.. sudah 95KG weh!!!... Its like 10KG from my Form5 Form.. Really2 Shitz!.. Need to Loose All those fat... Hope To At least Do This New Year resolution... Need to Loose weight.. adn get a MP3 palyer.. cz no way i can exercise wit Stupid gay RnB Music!

Goin Bek This Friday... cant Wait Too See baby!!! 40hours 30min approx. to go..:)

And.. here's the 1st un-official couple photo..:)

Kuantan in the year 2010

2010-01-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

Its January 3rd... And its my 3rd day here in Kuantan.. after 4months of not cmin bek... all i can say is... There is no freaking place like Kuantan.. :-D

Been eating non stop since i got here.. Wine, Mum's Cooking, PINEAPPLE TARTS!!!! MUMS FRUIT SALAD!!!.... So much for wanting to loose weight.. die la.. my baby see me means sure i gonna get tease like hell... gotta start exercising.. abit.. tmr.. hehehehe...

Went and watch Avatar in 3D tday wit my mum and sis.... It was a good movie.. but not the best movie for a 3D style... I wud Prefer watchin Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs in 3D.. more effects... More Fun..:D..

another 3more days and it wud be my 1st month anniversary wit my baby, Ms. Pinto..:D... havent seen her for 2weeks dy... missing her badly.. Cant Wait for this friday wen i go bek KL.. SO i can see her..:)... IM WAITING FOR U BABY!!! MISSING U!!!

owh.. on the 9th.. please come to Coco banana cz ill b Spinning there.. ITs sorta like an audition for a Dj position in a new club.. Will have to start wit RnB *sickening... like vomit sick*.. have to play... then will go faster till electro/house... and wen it raech house/electro.. im gonna rock the socks of till they die!!! muahahahahah... Death to Ah Bengs!!.. MUAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

OK ok.. PSycho period shall be kept till the 9th.... Hmm.. Havent gone to the Beach or Met my Frenz up yet... been busy eating.. hehehe.. mayb tmr onwards la..:) gotta visit my favourite Cyber cafe as well.. jz to continue my games there. wonder if its stil there or not.. hmmm..

anyways.. till next time.. LOVE U BABY!!!!.. MISSING U!!

What Time YOU Reaching ar??

2009-12-29T07:13:00.003+08:00

Its 7.15am in the morning of the 29th of December... I havent slept the whole nitez.. Cudnt sleep... God Knows y.... I only noe i wont be goin out With Christine and Tina... SOrry guys.. :( .... And its really annoying knowing u hear the birds chirping outside ur window.. only becz u havent slept the whole nitez.. if i wake up and hear, den diff story la.. but still.. 7am la weh!!!.. AKU NAK TIDO NI!!!... TUHAN SELAMATKAN LA SAYA!!! T.T

*Deep Breathes*... ok ok... Enuf of Drama Pagi Ini.... so.. its been oficially 3weeks and 2days me and Ms.Pinto been together as a couple. She's with her family now so i cant see her much. Of cz, being how soon it is and the situation, her family doesnt noe yet la.. neither does mine.. but im gonna tell mine wen i go home... :)..... anyways... everyday has been a new discovery about me and her.. New things we find out, we things we learn (this is the process of getting to noe each other better... in case u guys are such noobs at communications)..... Met her Yesday at MPH.. tho i only to spend like 30mins wit her... but it was worth it to hold and kiss dat sum1 u really love dat u havent seen for a week.. LOVE U BABY!! :)

Well... Will be Goin Home This Friday... But i still have 3days of work to do.. jz to finish my contract... after that.. holiday... on the 8th ill be back here... and on the 9th... WOOOHOOO!!!!>.. i have my GIG/Audition at COCO Banana/Q-Bar as a DJ.... GOtta make a Living to SUpport my self la.... GOtta Burn Tonnes Of Cd's again... Gotta Be Prepare.. Gotta Rock the Crowd... WOOHOOO!!!

Life Rite now has been much relax.. much easier... thanks to my baby who is always there for me... Love u... lol.. yea yea.. i wont make u guys sick here.. not yet.. hehehe....

well.. till wen i have mood to rite again... ciowz.... and HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!... oo.. and this is my new Hair Cut!COmment la skit yea..:)

November 09 Trance Mix

2009-12-26T03:58:00.002+08:00

After so long... now ny i uploading this.. isnt so good but its packed wit powerfull songs.. do take a listen..:)

November 09 Trance by Crazy Sinclair

1. DJ Tiesto - Century (ft. Calvin Harris)
2. Martin De Jong - Antartica (4Am Mix)
3. Sean Tyas - Seven weeks (Original Mix)
4. Alex M.O.R.P.H ft. Ana Criado - Sunset Boulevard (Original mix)
5. Ferry Corsten - We Belong (Tritonal Air Up There Mix)
6. RHCP vs AVB - Waiting For Freak (Christian Ketelaars Mashup)
7. Thomas Feijk and Jonas Hornblad ft. Sonja - Taxi Driver (Jonas Hornblad Mix)
8. BT - Rose Of Jericho (Virtual Vault Remix)
9. Paul Miller presents Motion Blur - Chieftec (Jonas Hornblad Mix)
10.DNS Project - Airbourne (Original Mix)
11.Dj Tiesto ft. Christian Burns - In The Dark (Radio Edit)

Home Is Where I Wanna Be

2009-12-20T14:45:00.002+08:00

Its the 20th of december... normally i would already be back home by now. Sleeping on my bed, waking up to a green hill view, eating home cook food, chicken and mutton curry, the fruit salads and the apple pie... dam i miss my mums apple pie.... but... im stuck here in subang. Have work to do. Will only be finishing on the 31st. Worst part, this Fucking hotel management is releasing my half month pay late so guess wat... im broke for xmas.. i only have like 30bucks to spare for the next 5days at least... awesomeness?? i hope i survive...

From my last blog, in which i cut short, i actually found sum1... sum1 very special and dear to me.. i Found a new gf..:).. fell in love in jz 1week... and my life have been sumhow meaningfull after dat. She's very supportive. she's actually.. in a very weird way, a reflection of myself. THo i only knew her for 3weeks, but the chemistry we have makes us feel as though we've talked for a lifetime. I hope everything goes well wit us. Love her.. :)

Been working and running around town like a dog all this while. Work, Helping my baby in her college project, My battle of the Bands thingy. Crazy la... Battle of the bands, my band got 6th place but every1 told us if it wasnt for the voting system, we'd al least won 2nd place hands down..:)....

Xmas is almost near... 5more days.. will be playing the drums for christmas eve mass at church.. But miss my family.. and my baby especially...well, ill see my gal in 3weeks and my family in 2weeks..patience!

Last Thursday was amazing.... Had a very crazy day.. from the start till the end... had to calm my baby cz she locked her self outside her own home (bloody locksmith cost us 60bucks jz to pick the lock... such an a$$)... den went to my work place wit her.. had dinner... after work went upstairs to the club... dance like crazy... went bek home... had a whole bottle of wine within 15mins.. (talk about alcoholics... they aint got shit on us..XD).... and jz slept the whole nite tru.. amazing day... beautifull day wen u wake up seeing the gal u love beside u..:)

Till den.. i leave u guys with this Xmas poem...

Summer Has Turned To winter,
Xmas Is Near Its Time To Cheer,
I Hold your hand IN the Cool Nights,
Snow Fall Are Such A Beautifull Sight,
Santa Busy Prepating His Gifts,
The World Awaits Him In da Snowy Mist,
Xmas Is Near And Im Anxious,
To Tell You The Truth Im a Lil Nervous,
To See Wether Im Naughty Or Nice,
Will I get Sugar or a Rotten Mice

Finally... la!

2009-11-30T22:51:00.004+08:00

Been like fucking ages since i updated this blog... so its gonna be a long wan.. i think.. i dunno.. who cares.. its my blog... wee~~ (p.s.. this blog is pressure upon by miss Christine WE)

so.. if im not mistaken.. the last tiem i wrote bout my looks and how i;ve changed... definitely not gonna say shit bout that la.. hahahahha.., pSYCH!

well.. lets see... i havent gone bek to my home town in 4months... been working in Hilton KL as a sound engineer for a band there. At The Cosmo Lounge... its right at the entrance of KL hilton, if u dun noe... Work there is ok la. Kinda simple.. jz come to work, set up equipment, mix the band live music, break (eat and drink free food... woohoo!!!.. best part of the job), mix again.. break again (Go up ZETA Bar and check out the band and Dj), come down mix again, start packing and go home.. simple eh?... haha.. not quite la... come bek 1-2am... sleep oso around 4-5am, if on a good day... bad day.. haiz.. 9am... cibai!... taking kinda a toll on my biological clock... a lil cibai-ish but ill leave.. as usual.. the nite demon reigns.. muahahaha... but there's always a sweet part in working.. i get experience and i get paid...yeah.. lifestyle of the middle class baby.. haha.. yeah.. only middle class la... well.. obviously better than the indian lifestyle.. hahaha

Partying However... hmmm.. has been slowed down like crazy due to my working life. Since im working on days we're partying are at the hardcore rate, so the hardcore partying in clubs has been put to a almost complete stop. However, i've been spinning at MNEP, Beside Asia Cafe, Above Starbucks.. Played there for halloween... man it was the shitz!.. awesome crowd.. finally get to play Rock... like realy hardcore rock in a clubbin environment... Hopefully This week get to party like 2012 again..XD

ok... sudah malas blog... type lain kali saja.. hehehehe.. got more important things to handle todays...heheeh

October Electro Mix

2009-11-06T10:16:00.001+08:00

October Electro Mix by Crazy Sinclair

Tracklist

1. D.O.N.S - Earth Song (Dj Sammy Remix)
2. NERD - Everyone Nose ( Bassjackers & Apsters Bootleg)
3. Avicii vs Beastie Boys - Time To Get ill ( Avicii Bootleg)
4. K-Tronic - Jump Around 2009 ( Original Bootleg Mix)
5. Joachim Garraud - The Computer ( Laidback Luke Edit)
6. OshiOne - Way You Move (Original Mix)
7. Dizzee Rascal and Armand Van Helden - Bonkers (CLub Mix)
8. Hott 22 - Wicked Games (Thomas Gold Remix)
9. Hardcharger Meets David Crayn - Angel ( Spirit & Crayn Electro Radio Mix)
10. Akira - Million Miles ( Dj Solovey Mix)
11. ATFC - I Called You ( The Conversation) ( ATFC Conversation killer)
12. Bomfunk Mc's - B-Boys & Fly Girls ( BeMax Whilliam Rise Remix)
13. Captain Jack - Captain Jack ( Dj Fisun Remix)
14. David Guetta - Sexy Bitch ( Afrojack rremix)
15. Fast Foot - Perfect Paganini ( CLub MIx)
16. Filthy Dukes ft. Wiley - Tupac Robot CLub Rock ( Kill em all Wiley Sort It out mix)
17. Vse Vklyucheno Zagoreloe leto (BeMax Whilliam Rise Club Mix)
18. RHCP - Otherside ( Benny Benassi Mix)
19. Disco Reason - For E ( Original Mix)
20. Laidback Luke - My G.O.D ( GUns On Demo)
21. Bon Jovi - Have a Nice Day ( DJ ZAM remix 09)

Electro Mix.. Kuantan Day 2

2009-09-19T02:53:00.003+08:00

ON the 2nd Day in Kuantan... Here's what i manage to record... :D

Electro Mix - Dj Sharky Sinclair by Crazy Sinclair

Tracklist

1. Flonko (version 2) - Steve Angello & AN21
2. Cirque Du Soleil (Starbeach 2009 Anthem) - Prunk le Funk & Norman Soares
3. Use Somebody (christian Luke Reboot) - Kings Of Leon
4. Cuba Libre ( D'azoo At Night remix) - Vougan
5. Acid Line ( Aniki's Trippin Balls remix) - Jay RoBinson
6. The Girls & Boys (Vandalism Club Mix) - Vandalism
7. NYC Beat + Feel The Hard Rock ( Up To No Good) - Armand Van Helden + Hardrox
8. Chin Chekit (Original Mix) - Redsquad
9. The Phantom (PH Electro remix) - Guenta K.
10. A Daydream Nightmare (Dj GRIN DEE club Mix) - Cara Dove

Trance Mix 1

2009-09-06T20:01:00.004+08:00

This is my Trance mix... did it 2weeks ago... not perfect but i love it.. do tell me wat u think..

Trance Mix 1- Dj Sharky by Crazy Sinclair

Tracklist :

1. Daydream (original Mix) - Markus Schulz vs Andy Moor
2. LED Let There Be Light (Laserwork Remix) - Rank 1
3. Faces (Ben Gold Vocal Remix) - Andy Moor & Ashley Wallbridge Feat. Meighan Nealon
4. Womanizer (Quantize Remix) - EarSugar
5. Love Story (Andy Moor Vocal Mix) - Nadia Ali
6. Lethal Industry (Original Mix) - Dj Tiesto
7. Magic Corner - Time In Motion
8. Back In Your Head ( Dangerous Muse Remix) - Tegan And Sara
9. Photograph (Jonas Hornblad remix) - Alex M.O.R.P.H feat. Roberta Harrison
10. The Wave - Cosmix Gate
11. In the Dark (Radio Edit) - Dj Tiesto feat. Christian burns
12. Adagio For Strings - Dj Tiesto
13. Prayer (2008 Edition) - Toxic
14. Into Darkness - Nuphlo

Hope u guys enjoy this.... Comment... n u can download it too...

College.... 2years ago till now

2009-09-03T22:59:00.009+08:00

During this emo period, was looking bek at the photos i have in my lappie.. the time's i had.. and the different looks i had... hahaha.. so tot of sharing wit u guys.... WARNING!!! THESE IMAGES ARE DISTURBING... VIEWER DISCRETION ADVICE!!

SEMESTER ONE

THE DAYS OF THE BLEACH/GOLDEN HAIR!!!

THE DJ-ING WORLD!

MY BATCH.. MT11

And...
The pic that is the most changin!..

u decide

brb

2009-09-03T16:41:00.000+08:00

later i upload my blog.. lazy ar.. always crash ny..

What's Happening??

2009-09-02T13:36:00.003+08:00

What's happening to me?.. y Am i not happy?... KNP EMO2 NI??...

I have no idea... been a bit down for the past few days... and last nite i reach my worse.. people who noe me trully(which is no1.. yeah... its sad.. i noe) noes i dun show my emo/sad side wen im out wit other people... but last nite, i showed it... n its bad.. i was emo for no reason... normally, hangin out wit christine and tina wud cheer me up but not yesday... i dunno wats wrong?.. Personal eMotion Syndrome i guess... hehe.. dunno la..

but then i was thinkin about it... was thinkin bout wats wrong? wat happening?... n got a few clues of y i am like this..it cud b 1 of them it cud b a mix of all.. i dunno.. im jz spitballin here..

1. Being single for too long??...
2. No outlet for my tension??
3. Monetary problem??

hahaha.. guess it is all of it... hmmm... oh well.. but i dunno la... y my life never stays happy... i dunno.. but without sadness, u dun enjoy happiness... rite???
Weird la.. How i manage to help people with their probz, calming them n cheering them up, but i cant do dat to myself... WHy la??... Do i need sum1 to cheer me up?... DO i need a gf to do dat?... Am i dat pathetic?.... haiz... dunno la.... i keep smiling n live myself....

Another thing dat makes me sad i guess wud b my selection of "crushes"... it's weird.... wenever i have a crush on sum1... its either they get a bf in the process of me tryin to get them or they reject me but sum how end up in a bad relationship.. at times i feel i move to slow... but if im lookin for a gf.. im lookin for a permanent wan... i dun mind having a fuck buddy... great tension releaser.. true dat.. but i wan sum1 i can connect wit... see la.. mayb ill jz get 1 for fun.. jz to fuck around...

Ah fuck it la... ill jz wait n see... i cudt care less now dy... Shud i tell the current crush?.. or shud i remain mum n find another wan?... weird eh how life kick's u in the ass after u help ur frenz goes to the similar shit ur feeling.... haahaa... come to think of it... i feel i have the upper hand yet the feeling of it gets me down...

IM broke! IM internet'less! IM phone LESS! IM Bored! I NEED TO EXERCISE! I need to go bek to the beach!. I NEED TO FORGET MY PAST! i NEED TO B HAPPY! I need sum1 to talk to!

To tina n Christine, Thanks for caring n always being there for me... sorry u cudt make me happy the other day.. it wasnt u, its me... im jz a lil down... u guys never fail to put a smile on my face... I LOVE YOU GUYS! i shall b fine...

haiz... i think i alraedy spoke too much... i need to chill... writing never solve anything for me... guess i need bek the METAL!... quoting Tenacious D "YOU CANT KILL THE METAL".... METAL is me! ANd i AM METAL!... No matter how techno electro i go.... MOSH PIT IS THE BEST!

Till then..................... AMiSADORAMiJZDYINGOFBOREDNESS??

Bek in subang

2009-08-30T03:44:00.002+08:00

fuuuhhh.... its been 1 weeks exactly i've been in subang... its awesome... looking back on wat happen this past week.. haha.. more stuff 2 do.. more tense but more fun as well.. hahaha...

Started sem 6 of my diploma in SAE... HELL YES!... MORE FILM STUFF... WOOHOO!!.. i love film... tho havent quite master the art of the camera.. rusty dy.. camera handling damn goyang.. haha.. but it's all cool.. practice practice practice!!hahahaa... the best cure.. hahaha..

i think my anger is comin bek again.. but only cz the internet has been gay (no pun intended.. watever the pun is).... why is it the cables in taiwan always comin undone...??... chinese made cables is it? hahaha... but im tryin to control wat once destroyed me... laughin never cease.. ahahah...

Past 2 days hasnt been such a good day... bike tyre flat on the way to a club.... phone n internet line being cut off wen needed the most.... ARSENAL LOST (reserving my moment of silence T.T)... Being broke..hahah.. as usual.. INDIAN HERE!!.. hehehe XD XD...

yeah yeah.. im racist.. so wat?.. arent u?.. really?.. ur not???.. wow.. i might see u in hell as well den.. hehehe... im rascist to my own race.. no joke. but im rascit to the other races jz to b equal.. haha.. cmon... wat?.. anti me?.. LOL.. too bad lor.. deal wit it.. haah XD...

anyways.. been a lil lonely lately... not like want a pussy lonely (tho i dun mind sum rite now XD)... but jz dat who noe's me.. noe's me la.. hahah.. i mean.. i prefer to come bek home n have sum1 to talk to... nothin can beat that feeling.. tru rite??... its never easy for me to find any1... being the looks n the cash isnt mine.... i can only offer myself n my happiness... well.. dat's it la.. jz waiting for lady luck ( yea, cz ill b the lucky wan :D ).... nothin but hope..

owh... isnt it weird.. wen u need sum1 to talk to, no1 is to be found... wen u duwan to chat.. ppl jz find u like ur the only left in the net/ phone lines.. hahaha.. i mean i have nothin against it.. im thankfull n blessed to have many frenz.. but at times... y la?.. hahaha.. yea yea.. i noe.. im not complainin la.. jz dat at times, .. haih.. nvm... jz me bring bored at times...

My internet radio is blooming... record number of people... 12... yea.. haha.. ok la.. isnt great but from where i started.. like 1 person only. that 12x more people :-).. doin good.. i think im gettin better at my mixing.. but aching to mix on CDJ at college but cant... freaking ramadhan month no overnitez... haih.. oh well.. jz have to wait...

anyways.. thank you for readin and and being my fren... sorry if i have done any wrong to any of u.. love u all! till next time.. owh... have a new mix.. will upload wen i have my net bek... till den... ciowz!

Kuantan... week 1

2009-08-09T14:16:00.002+08:00

Breathe the half fresh air of haze n mountain breeze... feeling peace n traquility in the comfort of my own home... listenin to the bark of my own dog.... owh, such pleasure...

hahaha... yea yea.. i sound like a drama queen.. hahaha.. anyways.. kuantan is great... hangin out.. chilin at home... its all good... sleeping late... waking up late without an alarm or date... Ignorance is bliss....

Yesday was at the beach wit camel n Fu aun... swam for a bit... it was fun... the waves was awesome.. n the company... priceless...wished taht more of the lot cud have come.. the more the merrier rite??...

got another 2 weeks or so here... still plannin wat to do in my coming weeks.. i wanna work but prefer working nitez.. in a club... so dj la... but susah la this club people.. especially the crowd here... Fucking Hip Hop n RnB only people.. open up ur mind la... niggafaggots!!.... but its all good.. mayb ill drop by the club n pass my demo cd later....

wit all the things goin on.. i stil do miss subang.. not for the hectic traffic or the fresh bus smoke i breathe in (fucking change the bus la!!)... but more on the company la.. my classmates.. My dj nitez in college.. My best fren, christine n tina with their humour n company... MISS YOU GUYS!..

but being in kuantan gave me time n space to relax.. un wind my troubles n past... im calm n peacefull now... i hope it remains till i get bek to KL... anyways.. till den... HAVE A GREAT WEEK>...

Current Situation...

2009-07-31T13:25:00.004+08:00

Its beena long time since i updated this thing. Not that i dun wan to but been busy and have been thinking a lot lately... so to keep u updated.. im fine... doin ok wit myself.. jz getting by moment to moment jz to survive.... hahaa.. a lil vague?... here here.. more detail's... well, this is wat i've been doin for the past 4months....

Been in 1 movie production.. like a proper movie production.. not a big budget wan but it was good expereince. 3weeks of fun, hard work, zombie like state of mind. Worked with many talented n famous people in the industry. Elaine Daly (Miss Malaysia), Lorna Choong (Stage Actress, choreographer), Khir Rahman (Puteri Gunung Ledang), Johan John (director of Ghost 8tv) and many other.. the crew n cast... we're fantastic... I hope the movie turns out good. cz during the shooting, a few of the crew cried during those sad moments.. thats how good it was....

After that, i worked on 3 minor yet experiencing projects... Worked for Johan John again, this time its a short comedy about prostitutes n the financial situation.. it was fun... i was the production assistant. So running around B.B n Jalan Alor getting them food n drinks. It was fun tho... Manage to act again... this time i was the brothels bouncer.. hahaha.. shit i do.. den again i got paid.. so no complain there.. hahaha...

Then i helped in on one of the 15Malaysia project short films (u'll noe wen it hits the tv... comin out this 17th august.. MY BDAY!!!)... i become the boom man @.k.@ audio guy in the production.. i was on the project with the Minister of Health acting.. yes my frenz... THE FREAKING MINISTER OF HEALTH!!!! n it was fun... good day! good shoot!...

Den i had my lecturer's crappy but experiencing project.. a video of a zapin dance.. it was freaking chaotic at first.. but it turned out allrite..all the footages are still in the skool's computer.. heheheheh...

Been goin out alot.. compared to the 1st 2years i was here... clubbin, lepaking , chilling.... yes, life has been different since the... change. Been more free... but u noe la.. its always better to have sum1 close to talk too... Goin out wit christine... so fun.. never fail to cheer me up.. even wen im down.. tho they never see my "emo-ness"... hope to go out wit the ladies again... nothing cheer's me up den banging my BFF.. hahahaha LOL.. yes, i noe that sounded gay...

Jz finish my 1st ever DJ-ing job in a club... it was allrite la.. tho the flyers stater electro n house n progressive music, sum ignorant bitches still wanted RnB.. No life is it?... RnB so.. so.. gay!!... not unless ur dancing wit ur partner n hoping to score sum dat nite.. which apparently, dem ladies wont be getting any... but it was good la.. manage to rock the crowd here n there.. its good.. but im still waiting for my cash... WHRE THE FUCK IS MY MONEY CHOO????

Yes, i am broke at the moment.. n have been broke for 2weeks already... sad isnt it?... haiz... i cant go bek home to kuantan cz cant buy ticket money...i wan to go bek home.. sit by the beach, feel the air, flirt wit the ladies there (dun tell any1), see the sunset while sititng on the highest rock.. pure BLISS..... so emo now... cant do anything... cant go out anywhere... if i stay like this, on sunday ill jz ride my bike home la... need to be home for my sis bday... i alredy missed my dad's bday.. not gonna miss this wan oso....

well, my exam is over.. hve nothing to do... y internet n phone has been cutt... need my cash to pay but im broke.. WHRE THE FUCK IS MY MONEY CHOO???????..... anyways.. till i go home.. take care y'all... cik officer, baik2 yea... anything calling2 me... ciowz people...!

Psytrance Mix

2009-07-19T08:59:00.001+08:00

Hey guys.. been long since i posted my Dj set... here's an old wan but i jz uploaded it la.. so .. enjoy!..

Dreamcore2 by Crazy Sinclair

My psytrance mix... it was mix long ago but i was too lazy to upload it.. but here it is now..

Track list:

1. Vaishiyas - Spacelord
2. Astral Projection - Power Gen (Space Cat Remix)
3. Astral Projection -Nilaya (Melicia Remix)
4. Astral Projection - Mahadeva (John '00' Flaming Remix)
5. Astral Projection - Still Dreaming

This Wan wen i started enjoying Psytrance.. hence most of the tracks are from Astral Projection... I Have A Bigger Collection Now...

weeee~~~

2009-06-26T23:36:00.002+08:00

WWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

LOl.. no, that wasnt a call for sum dum korean superstar!...... i finally finish my 2nd production. Help out Johan John again.. this time its a spin off from the 1st production i made wit him.. not bad. this time im promoted la... i was production Assistant a.k.a Production runner... well, i was the runner and the propman.. i love it la... besides carrying 2boxes of mineral water from 99speedmart to swiss garden hotel (estimated 4oometers of horror), everythin was good.. we finish shoot at 6am.. finish cleanin n putting bek akl the stuff aroung 7.30am.. dam tirring but very fun... rode bek to my place here... had a bath... clean my place a little.. very dusty.. slept for an hour.. woke up at 3pm.. msg my fren who was on the bus.. she bored la so teman2 skit.... den continue sleep.. (Fade out) :-)

(Fade in) woke up at 6pm n been onlining since aahaha...

Update on my life atm...;

Love ; still in search.. have a 1 in mind so still tryin my luck... hopefully all goes well la

college : busy but ok.. now got a stupid project on shooting the bharatnatyam dance.. danced by students n college mates.. WTF???... get a life Mr. Ismail.. y cant we shoot proper dances?

Working : Finish 2productions, 1 Dj-ing job in 1month 2weeks.. very tiring... but fun n very much giving me the experience n contacts... awesome ness.. OWH!!!.. im DOin a stand up comedy in Zouk on thursday, jul 2nd... Come n support please!!...

LIfe ; partying hard.. finally gonna watch a movie tmr... Transformers here i come... Been goin out alot to clubs n party n events... Went to watch Twice Da Rice Gig at Gloria jean Mont Kiara.. awesomeness..

well.. thats my update for now la... hmmmm... adios.. hope to see u guys at my stand up gig... support baby!!

aaaaahhhh.. finally

2009-06-21T20:51:00.001+08:00

hmmm.. after 1month +... almost two months.. i finally got my proper sleep.. a beautful, none distubance sleep.. dam nice!

hmm.. lazy la wanna rite blog nwdays.. wat to do... becoming a fat fuck.... time to loose weight.. where's the cheap gym>>

its been a while

2009-06-15T05:48:00.002+08:00

OMG.. so long dy never post a post on this blog... its been like wat?? 3weeks?.. a month?.. i dunnno.. so amayn things happen. i finish my porduction.. pictures will come in later la..

done my 1st dj job.. al tho pro bono n not the normal songs i play.. i got a good response from the crowd.. its was allrite la...

love life... haiz.. confusing..... details shall not be added... hahah...

skool.. fucked up as always...

not enuf sleep..

need a drink

need to jam..

now need to go college..
ciowz

1ST DAY OF PRODUCTION!!!

2009-05-22T06:53:00.005+08:00

IF u didnt noe... i started interning/ helping in on a film produciton today.. well actually thursday la.. the film is called Cahaya...

So far the production been awesome.. here's ur daily laughter.. i am assistant costume/assistant art director/ production biatch!!.. ahahhahah..but its cool... the cinematography has been awesome!~!... JOhn Johan direction superb..

n its a hectic schedule tho but its all good..the shooots are mostly at nitez.. so ill b like on set from 5pm till 6am.. for now la.. cudnt remember about the other locations.. but it is awesome. wait ar.. i try see i can get pictures from the production that khairil m bahar (producer/actor) tagged me on fb..

ok.. got it.. here dey are... Me tryin to screw bek a screw into the switch board.. fucking cables j zwont fit.

From Left To right:
Fong, Agam, Me

From Left To right:
Me (wit Camera), Zamri (sitting down), Agam

till next time folks.. its 7am.. yes AM.. n im gonna sleep.. ciow..

Electro Set.. MUSIC BABY

2009-05-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

I made this song while i was 27hours without sleep...

Its now been 36hours i have not sleep.. n im uploading this.. ahha. awesome.. anyways.. check out the song.. u'll love dem...

Friday spin by Crazy Sinclair

Mixing Using Virtual Dj After 24hours of no sleep... a lil sloppy but its ok la... please listen in stereo. mind blastin!

Tracks :

1. Dont Phunk With My Heart ( Klass Style 2009)
2. Pretty Fly 2009 (DJ GRIN DEE Electro Remix)
3. Dani California (Sebastien B Remix)
4. In The Dark '09 (Peter C. Dark Remix)
5 Numb ( Private Edition 2009)

Testing!!

2009-05-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

jz testing this track i mashed up.. seeing wat u guys thing.. n testing this website's uploader..

Omen Twin MIx ( DJ Sinclair vs dirty dico remix) by Crazy Sinclair

FREAKIN HOT!!!!

2009-05-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

DID YOU KNOW>..... That today, 8th of MAy 2009, its reach 40 freaking degress celcius here/... WTF!!!???... dam hot dey... i was sweating like hell.. i drank my 2litre bottle of water in half a day... holy cow!!..

hah! (exhaling)... owh.. been spinning on9 this past week... THANKS TO EVERY! WHO LISTENED N COMMENTED>>> will b playing more!!.. JZ DROP ME A REQUEST>>>

for u who dun noe.. this is the link.. it only works wen im spinnin.. illl let u noe wen i do.. chakra_sonic20033@hotmail.. add me if u wanna noe wen i spin.. msn or ym la...

The link to my Radio is http://leonardsinclair.listen2myradio.com/ .....

Hope to hear from u guys!!

hahahaha

2009-05-02T18:50:00.001+08:00

I LOVE ARSENAL!! THEY"RE MY FAVOURITE TEAM BUT... HAHAHAH... ILL JZ SHOW U LA. den u'll see

"Mikael Silvestre
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Mikael Silvestre will not play at Fratton Park on Saturday. "Silvestre has a groin as well. We have not scanned him yet [so we don’t know about Tuesday] but he will miss Saturday for sure," said Wenger"

lol.. wat the hell?.. isnt it obvious he has a groin?/ lol.. haha...

well, its suppose to be that silvestre has a groin injury as well.. hahaha;... anyways// GO ARSENAL!!.. GUNNERS FOR LIFE!!

poem of relaxation

2009-05-01T15:28:00.001+08:00

a bird fly n sings,
the soft soothin touch of a the wind,
a loyal companion at ur side,
sharing the peace v died to fight,

lol.. i suck at peace poem.. love n hatred only.. lol.. next time ill try again.. aahaah

Back in Kuantan..

2009-05-01T14:06:00.002+08:00

After my Grandfather's funeral on Wednesday evening, i stayed a night at my my "village' to rest...

FYI.. an indian funeral is jz like an Indian wedding... EXTREMELY LONG!!!!.... so many things to do.. Thank God im a christian.. sprinkle a few holy water, chuck me in the ground.. kao tim.. no problemo...anyways. he was safely buried... (reserve a moment of silence)....

ok.. then i decided to follow my parents bek home to kuantan for the weekend, since i have no class.. goin bek sunday morning... come here jz to relax.. gonna go to the beach tmr.. wanna relax n feel n SMELL the ocean breezzzeee~!!!... im sick of smelling freaking lorry exaust smoke.... i can die if i have to that another 20years...the beach if always the best place for me.. it calms my mind... n the food at my beach... MARVELOUS... there's the Famous MEE CURRY STALL 'HOI YIN", the best ais kacang stall, n if u feeling a fast bite, McD's n KFC is jz there... PALM BEACH BABY!!!..

let u noe more nexxt time... ciowz!!!!... KUANTAN MOTHER CHOOT!!!!

my grandfather...

2009-04-29T02:16:00.000+08:00

my grandfather jz passed away.. its 2.15am now.. i jz got a called from my mum...

i will be in jerantut this week.... fuck man.. he jz died... gotta hold bek my emotions..

say wat?

2009-04-29T02:04:00.004+08:00

huh?.. since wen i ask u bek?.. trying to screw me up ar?... SORRY>>> THE REST OF THE MSG HAS BEEN CENCORED BY ME DUE TO TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES>>>

TO MY AQUANTAICE TO WHOM THIS MSG IS TO>>> U ShALL NOE THE NEWS WEN UR NOT READY>> YES>> WEN UR NOT READY>

frenz?... hahah i think not..

2009-04-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. frenz u say.. sorry.. lets get a direct quote shall we.. "aquaintance".. nicely put.. good2..

i shall honour your last wishes for u have been buried within me... ur soul shall make a fertile ground for my next soul.. n i shall go soul hunting till i am finally satisfied.. yet remember dat ur soul is wat fuels my hate..

so good bye, sayonara, be dead n stay history for yesday was passed n u are no longer forever...

P.S... hahahahaha.. im still happy.. muahahaha.. FML..

haiz... susah la..

2009-04-27T20:11:00.002+08:00

yeah.. its been 3weeks of being single n apart.. but yesday.. sum thing make me think la..

i was watchin Nick & Nora Infinite playlist, a movie (duh!), n i remembered all the times that i spend wit her... all the good times, all the dates...

susah la... but im keeping this in my heart.. cz she doesnt wan me bek.. so wat for go susah2 propose again rite?.. i need to move on la.. but wat 2 to.. used to be so close..

nvm dat,.. im broke like fuck now.. like i have 5cent left in my wallet... jz now lunch n tea oso covered by my classmates ( THANKS ANDREW N TITUS).... haiz.. i need a job but so hard to find a job in my field.. guess i need to do my old job bek 4 a while den.. WAITER!!!....

haiz.. see la how.. ok la.. till den..

(INSERT TITILE HERE)

2009-04-26T14:39:00.003+08:00

tired... bored... crazy... broke.... thatd the 4words i can use to describe my week... been sleeping less nwdays.. n im used to it.. been sleepin like 4-5am everyday... crazy..

tryin to write a script for a drama i wanna do for the astro competition..... cant wait to DJ again but im broke like (insert ur favourite curses here)....

body feels so tired tho i sleep enuf.. (insert ur favourite curses here)........

haiz.. sien la.. dunno wat to write.. owh.. i LOVE PRODIGY NEW ALBUM... n ASTRAL PROJECTION>>> 2 awesome electronica band...

FML.. hahahahah

2009-04-19T16:13:00.002+08:00

there this site call FML (fuck my life).. no its not porn..lol... its whre people type things of wat stupid things happens in their life.. i was laughin histerically like a madman alone reading their stuff.. here sum stuff...

Today, I turned 18. Nothing was said at breakfast, but I figured they'd remember and we'd have cake at night. I came home and there was cake, but not for me. My sister got her period for the first time during the day and they were celebrating. Apparently, a vaginal discharge was more important. FML

Today, I celebrated my 21st birthday. My boyfriend of almost 3 years gave me a big pink vibrator. Thinking it was a joke I said: "I won't need this as long as I have you!" His reply: "That's what I wanted to talk to you about." FML

Today, I was petting my cat when my new mood ring turned bright purple. I checked the piece of paper that came with the ring and saw that purple meant I was feeling "hot, sexy, and passionate." According to my ring, I'm hot for my cat. FML

Today, I was masturbating to a video a friend sent me. The girls were hot, walking out on a stage doing all sorts of sexy manuevers. The video was close to ending and the announcer in the video announced the winner. His name was Dan. It was a drag competition. My friend knew I'd whack off to it. FML

Today, I found my phone under the car seat after three days. I flipped it open ready to issue apologies to everyone who had tried to get in touch with me and I had worried. No missed calls. FML

Today, I was at my new apartment. My fiance was coming home so I filled the apartment with candles and put on some sexy music. When he came up to my door, I answered the door, naked. What I didn't know was that he was bringing his dad to see the new apartment. FML

this and more on this website.... http://www.fmylife.com/ ... enjoy..

my break up poem for you, my dearest fren..

2009-04-18T00:14:00.002+08:00

once a upon a time,
the was sweetness in the air,
not a taste of sour lime,
a time where for each other we cared,
then things got ruff,
all teary eyed n heart,
all the things we've love,
chizzled together keeping us part,
now ur gone n i realise my love for u was strong,
but all i ever wanted is to see u smiling (hahahaha.. u noe wat song that was from),
im sorry for my the things i;ve wronged,
i hope we'll b frenz since then till dying...

not as good la.. but ok ok lor.. hehehehe

what a week!!

2009-04-18T00:02:00.003+08:00

hmmm its been.. 5days??? since i broke up wit my gf (now ex gf).. sumhow for me.. i feel fine.. n sumhow happy but still feel empty la.. how not to feel like dat?.. a person i really loved wit all my heart n soul jz gone like dat.. but we;re still frenz..mayb cz i saw the break up cmoing n it was gradual instead of a sudden fight n fuck off thingy..muahahaha...

but v still chat n talk about our past n present.. i mean we're close frenz but there will always b that connection of wat we had n gone tru together... i still love her but i think, n she tinks, its better v remain frenz.. tho i sumtimes feel it a lil dream shattering la.. but life must go on n im finding it pretty happy.......

SInce monday, i;ve been a crazy overactive pig (ah ha.. u didnt noe such things exist.. lol).. monday went for class, den futsal den overnighted at titus place.. had 2hours of sleep.. den went to studio for my post production assignments... lepak here n there.. then saw JOHN upstairs at the DJ room.. apa lagi.. balik, mandi, pack CD overnite lagi... no sleep tonitez.. after DJ sessions, class. wit mr ismail.. a real funny man.. mmg wa tabik sama lu la, sir,,..

Den came home.. slept for 14hours straight.. i didnt even wake up in the night.. i was dead for that 14hours..hehehe.. den.. wen for an audition in bukit bintang for a movie.. came bek... bought my USB modem n got it cheap la.. sort of... then went to summit n hang out wit cynthia (she is my fren from kuantan church).. chat about old time.. kinda got a job or a proposal to do wit her skool prom.. need to find DJ stuff from my college.. things like dat la...

den friday.. today..went studio.. did my post production thingy... went futsal.. came bek home.. chatted wit my ex.. ada la rasa rindu skit kat dier xp skang kawan je la... shared a few "break up songs" wit her.. lol... den now im here lor... jz typing msg to any1 who is dumb enuf to read n waste time on my blog..

tomoro goin for my college open day.. goin for the food mostly.. muahaha.. den again,.. so is every1 in my collge.. h aaa.. o.. till then.. ckiow..

single again

2009-04-13T10:35:00.001+08:00

yes.. i am single again.. apparently my girl quit.. saying he doesnt u.stand anymore.. hahah.. how to u.stand me wen u keep talking to other people?.. anyways... i dun mind.. her choice.. so im single bek again.. goin bek on the prowl again.. woohhooo!!!.. ladies lets go...

FEEL GOOD INC.

2009-04-12T14:27:00.002+08:00

hmm.. if u've been reading my blog.. u'd see how mentally unstable i was... but now im fine.. im healthy n happy.. been doin a lot of thinkin (n been a whole lot patient wit things)....

i got four movies from naz the other day... Fight club, seven puonds, slumdog millionaire and halloween.... these 4movies actually can be put to 2categories in my personality...

personality 1:

Slumdog millionaire and seven pounds... Love n trials to keep a love goin... if u've wat6ched this movies u'd see that both movies really fight for people's happiness n sacrificing their need for others.. im not saying im such a saint n will sacrifice anything (im still an alien wit needs) but i'll do anything for the wan i love.. anything jz to have dat person around (but not till locking them up in a basement la).. n the things they do jz so they can see other people happy.... seven pounds really, really touched my heart.... good movies

Personality 2:

Halloween n Fight club... hmmm.. its my other personality.. its the Devil in me ;-o..... halloween shows how a child wit a twisted mind can be.. which kept me thinkin dat i cud have been like dat if i didnt have an inner voice (yes, i hear voices in my mind.. every second)... n fight club wud be the lonely/sad part of my life... i sumthing speak to myself (again.. voices appears) but its revolves around the past things dat has happen.. but it evolutionize its self to wat i shud have said n becomes a whole diff story.. when dat happen, i have tonnes of question n sick, demented ideas come's up to mind...

overall.. this 4 movies can really sum up into protaying my 2most outstanding displayed emotion or inner thought.. watch those movies n u'll noe how i really am...

say sumthing

2009-04-07T16:48:00.001+08:00

Sorry if i treat u bad,
but im really goin mad,
I no longer have my heart,
My oush to live is cutted,
Im Findin it hard to live without my heart,
I need peace but its worlds apart,
Staring in the mirror,
I see myself as a serial killer,
Blood flow tru my scarred skin,
i noe in life i can no longer win,
I u.stand if u wanna leave,
IM crazy but even i wud leave,
My life slowly falls like a dried leaf,
I hope u talk to me n say sumthing in the future,
or ill think to you i mean a useless, dreadfull creature...

now i u.stand wat it feels like to be the character played by edward norton in "Fight Club"... all my life i noe i was a bit crazy but it all crumble, shattered, broken n pierce my soul out jz recently.... im a broken man... nite after nite i feel depressed yet in the morning im as cheerfull as the singin nightingale...

dunno anymore

2009-04-07T16:47:00.000+08:00

i dunno anymore.. i cant take it... i feel like quittin but its tough.. i dun trust myself.. i dun trust people... i hate myself even more now.. getting tense, angry for no reason for for the slightest reason.. my frenz dunno noe .. mayb cz they never seen me yell at any1 or any1 of them for that matter before... i have a severe anger/trust/betrayal issue... i've had it since i was young.. but it now develope into sumthing that i fear might be overboard.. i need help.. professional help.. but i think my remaining sanity is helpfull enuf.. but its not long till i explode n create a chain saw massacre (or a double parang massacre) here... only girlfren has seen dis.. my anger n my other side (in which i always say is my other personality, the devil that was suppose to be born??..)

Wen i say i have issues, i mean i have issues... wanna noe how bad?... my gf fears me.. not out of respect, but out of scaredness... she fears me n it shows.. i hate it... how can u be with sum1 who fears u, not respect... haha.. respect.. even i hardly respect myself.. how could any1 else... it kills me sumtimes, like literally, wen i noe i made my gf cry or scared... but i dunno y is it that only she i can show my anger too.. but not in fornt of her.. only wen she's far away or not directly in front of me... her face n her presence always keeps me calm.. no matter how pissed, im still in control..

but now she's far away.. my peace n calmness is no longer here... my twin is up n is giving me a heartbreak, my life as i noe is coming to a waste... i dunno.. mayb i need to let sum steam out ( n no darling, typin it out dun work, it only aggravates it).... i need music.. i need to let out my scream... i need to scream for the devil... let it out... stop disturbing me...AAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!! i've gone crazy... i mean like sociopath/psychopath, killer mind, serial killer doin it for a serial thriller reliever... i can talk to myself n answer myself as a different person.. my gf heard that once... n i wasnt messing around.. i actually lost my brains out... it wasnt a good conversation...i was arguing wit her (in which case i was at fault, really2 big time fault..)

what am i to do?... i dun wanna die early but ithink its best for every1... i feel like taking 500DB of Subwoofer n fit it in my brain.. at least i can die wit music (n wit style)... i noe no1 wan reads this stupid depressing, psychopath blog, even my girl read other people wan instead of mine... but if u are reading it, n u think u can help or encourage me to kill myself, here's my email.... chakra_sonic20033@hotmail.com ..... chakra_sonic20033@yahoo.com ... n my phone number 017-9562767 ... in case u wanna call me 1 last time.. (i dunno how long i have till im no longer here)... till then... i say good bye to every1 n any1.. sorry for the pain i've cause n the hearts i've broken... i hope all is forgived n forgotten...

Marbles missing

2009-04-06T10:18:00.001+08:00

IM sorry but im an idiot,
My sole Purpose is to create a riot,
I hate to fight,
but i no longer tell which's rite,
a mystic figure shadows my sight,
covering me from a single light,
i glow from within,
but i shine wit sin,
mayb bcz i wear a mask,
giving me hate like a hot water flask,
My world crumbles n shatters,
under my breathe curses i mutter,
the thunder growls and the slammin shutter,
i wanna be free, away from this cluster,
i wish to die sooner not later,
but i promise sum1 ill b there forever,
mayb i will, mayb i'll never,
but i noe im much crazierr,
till den so long my n good bye my long lost fren,
i shall see u again in the end.

HATE!!

2009-04-06T10:16:00.000+08:00

i no longer have feelings,
only hatred lingers,
i cant no longer heal,
my scars stays forevers,

my mind has no peace,
i cant live with ease,
being happy is my wish,
but only hate on my list,

i noe its bad,
it only makes me sad,
but now i have no patience,
im out to get my vengeance,

God n Satan dwell in me,
interpreting wat they see,
should i kill or let it be,
my sould no longer free,

nw i go to a place i hate,
yet destined to be by fate,
where angels sing n fire's burn,
In God ray i will burn...

WHAT IS LOVE?

2009-04-02T10:28:00.001+08:00

What is love??.. really?? Can anyone really describe wat love is? I really think not... because.. if u can decribe it, ur jz faking love..

You might say love is sum1 caring for someone... does dat mean u love ur barber/hairstylist?

you might say love is sum1 doing sumthing from the bottom of their heart... does dat mean all charitable person love the poor??

i wud say love is sumthing u could not explain... love is sumthing dat comes from deep within (i hope its not from ur bowels)... love is sumthing u feel.. love is more than tolerating one another differences... love is... well.. LOVE!!...

i simply cant explain it but i feel it.. WHY is love so hard to explain??.... there was a saying i say in the movie sepet (or how i wud sum it up)... " You can love sumone in a second but u cant like the person a minute..."... i guess thats y there are so many sick puppies around, me included... yes im still in love.. very much in love... it'll b two years in june but of cz, a lil much longer for me (as i was the sick puppy :-D), but i still love my darling the same i loved her wen i 1st fell in love.. i think i grew much more since den.. all the things we share n we've been tru... i really think what i have wit her, i can never achieve it wit any other human (or living creature for that matter)......yes, the pass 6months havent been such a silky smooth ride but i think im becoming more u.standing, well at least i hope i am....but wats a relatioship without its ups n downs... seriously, if ur a couple n havent had ur quarrel yet, sumthing sum where is wrong.....

Back to topic, LOVE... LOVE... LOVE>>> yes... im in love!!.. im filled wit love n im surrounded by it... my darling definitley drowns me wit love, my parents, my frenz.... but i wud say that a lover's love knows no boundary.. yes.. my darling, my chayang (dis word copywrited, daniel dun steal.. muahahahahha)... my one and only princess n sweetie, miss vageswary @ stella (wat to do, nowadays got people muz have london name :-p)...

my trip bek to kuantan was really wat i needed from the tension i've bee pullin without being near my darling... the 1st 3days was filled wit hugs n kisses, very romantic, tho i only hand at her place it was better den being far away not seeing tru dat star filled eyes...

ok.. im gonna stop now n let u guys finish vommiting.... i noe i noe.. very revolting.. yea yea.. i noe la... but wat to to.. got people steal my heart so im like this lor... hmmm... i wonder wether i shud tell u guys bout how i met my sweet heart.. dat will b another time.. of cz...

b4 i go... DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

WHO AM I??

2009-04-02T10:27:00.000+08:00

Who am i really?... if u judge by my blogs n stuff, u wud summarize me into a few things

1. very in love
2. very dark
3.hopeless romantic

yes i am all of that but i am much more... here.. today i reveal to you wat i am trully.. no more mask, no more macy's day parade...

I am alone.. yes i have a gf but i still feel alone... i have frenz yet i still feel alone... im always the person that blended in but sumhow becomes the forgotten one... i realise this wen i was young, 9-10 years old.. mayb being the eldest in the family, i had to look out for myself more.. i tend to do thinks by myself... yes i love being wit company but sum how, i dunnno, i still feek left aside..

im not saying that i have a bad gf, no... wen im wit her, i cherish every single milisecond with her but i do wonder y i still feel emoty at times...
mayb its me, i noe its me but y so???

being me, i try to "lose myself" in music.. but reality has to hit my head every 10mins.. at those moments i feel alone.. and im a guy who cant seem to forget the past... it rewinds in my head like a post production studio.... wenever i hear or see sumthing that reminds me of sumthing or a conversation, the memory lingers, most of the time it becomes a re-act of those memories in which case i think of wat i shud have said or done... it like a dream only that ur not sleeping... kinda depressin really but thats jz me... n bcz of this "gift", i had alot of problem wit my gf... not that i wanna bring up old stories wen we have arguments, but it jz pops up.. i wanna b forgetfull, especially of my past but wat am i to do???.

n i like being an entertainer, a crowd pleaser.. so i try to "satisfy" every1 needs as much i can... im not saying i like to help people but i think i have "entertainer blood".. watever the hell that means.... like instance, i cant sing, but i still sing anyways (wit music in the bekground) jz so i can please a crowd (this no longer happens but i stil love to do it).. i do things jz to see people happy...

So who am i really?.. am i jz a make believe of everything i seee n hear?? am i jz a psychopath who deals wit his problems differently??. who am i or WHAT Am I?>>. i dunno. trying to work things out wit myself... mayb i shud had taken psychology course... at least i cud do sum medical test on myself to see wether im scientifically retarded... mayb i already am jz dat im taking it lightly... WHO?????? WHAT???????? WHY?????.... STOP ASKING QUESTIONS!!! i hope i get to fake my death... jz to see how many people wud actually come to my funeral.. that'll b fun... jz to see my family coming to bury.. i doubt any1 else wud come but time will tell.. till den... i hope to write again..

hmmm.. i wonder if i have multiple idiotic personality syndrome... ill let u noe if i find out... :-)

sorry sayang

2009-03-17T18:08:00.002+08:00

fight fight fight... dats all i do rite now wit my gf.. no more romantic feeling, no more taking care of her feeling, jz destroyinh her mental health..

Y da hell im like this nowdays, i dun noe..jz feeling angst n frustation without a reason... always finding prob.. Y Y Y Y AM I A FUCKING ARSEHOLE TO MY GAL!!!???..

She didnt do anything to hurt me but im hurting her,.. i cant live wit that feeling.. knowing that i hurt her so much.. i noe i can say sorry but it really doesnt do the trick.. i can still tell she's sad n pissed at me...

i wanna jz break wit her jz so i wont pressure her anymore but i still love her so much n i rather b wit her than without..fuck im confuse..
n i know she's hurt.. really badly... wat am i to do??.. sorry sayang.. i cant do much.. i hate myself so much right now.. knowing ur sad that i caused it.. hurts me n make me feel like wanna kill myself... i hope u kill me wen i meet u jz so u'll feel better n live ur live happily without me pressuring me again..i feel so fucked...

i feel bad

i feel like suicide

i feel like such an ass...

i hope i die..

i hope i dun live to see the next day light...

i hopeu live happily ever after..

i hope u dun feel hur cz of me again..

i hope u dun cry anymore
i hope u dun b sad anymore.

im gonna leave u alone for a while now,.. but im not breaking up..
im not quitin u wen i have sumthing really special..

u changed my life... u actually made me enjoy life ina way i never felt..

i finally noe wat true love is..

but now i jz hate my self..

ok im gonna shut up now..

if u feel like callin or msgin me anytime..

please do... imm really really sorry.. :-(<

evil pictures of me

2009-03-14T14:30:00.012+08:00

THIS ARE PICTURES TAKEN BY TITUS MACBOOK PRO>>>
EXJOY THE EXXTREME N HORRIFIC FACES OF ME!!!

DR.Frankenstein!!

EVIL EYEDS

CMON.. every1 love horny elves.. muahahahadun u jz love fat kids.. hahaha

OMFG!!!!oooooooodun i look like the guy from the dragonball comic.. hahahacute inbred childrenDO YOU HEAR THE LOVE?? WOOT WOOT!!my triple eyed twin.. so sexy... lol..

DEAD NOT BURIED

2009-03-12T10:32:00.003+08:00

i sumtime wonder why am i on eart?? wat ever i do effects sum1 in sumway... especially my gf... i've beeen a really, really, really bad bf lately.. yelling at her for no reason.. stupid rite? y treat her like dat wen she my princess, the queen on my heart... but it did happen n no matter how much sorry i say, it the n guilt never goes away..

im no the kind of guy that can forgive n forget... forgetin is 1 of my BIG flaws, i never can forget.. things dat happen, conversation jz comes in my mind at random times n i am force to replay the memories over again.. it suck.. i think im half past crazy.. dunno la.. if u wud excuse me.. i wanna go murder a mosquito n kill the internet..

??/

2009-03-10T16:11:00.001+08:00

i hate... i hate... i hate...

oops.. wrong blog...

sorry for being a jerk...

2009-02-19T22:58:00.002+08:00

im sorry sayang... for all this while being suchan idiot 2 u... hope u u.stand... sorry..

peace is wat i really need,
sumthing only u can give,
tho i have made u weep,
but without u i cannot live,
a hug from u is all i want,
a warmth unlike the sun,
ur kiss as sweet as candy's sweet,
i promise u a dinner under candlelith,
i may b fat but my love is fit,
i miss wen on my lap u sit,
tho nw i hear the noise of india,
ill love u where ever u are,..

tiredness...

2009-02-18T19:43:00.002+08:00

haiz... its 8pm... n its been 32hours since i last slept... overnited in college to record sum songs... need to go bek n sleep.. tired...

finally, i get to go bek on friday.. 4.30pm bus to kuantan... wanna meet my sayang,.. miss her so much.., have been a really really bad bf latey... scolding her for no reason.. haiz.. really bad.. wanna make things rite wit her.. at least have my valentine date wit her... hopefully a day at the beach... jz sit, picnic n wATCH the sunset...

also go bek n fic my laptop screen.. crack!!!!.. aiyaa.. lazy write la.. wanna go bek home 1st... wanna shower, n sleep.. like a log , sleep, n hope no stupid fuckin mutha fucka's wake me up (no offense to uncle but i need my rest la!!).... till then.. ciowz

crazy february

2009-02-06T09:53:00.002+08:00

so LOng never blog.. malas ler.. anyways, here's my update..

SHIFted house from shah alam to USJ1.. better environment (den again, anywhere without that bitch is a good environment)...

HAvent spend at least 2hours wit my gf for the past 4weeks in total (yes, only 2hours the most 4 3weeks),.. very very sad n missing my gal so much...

tonnes of assignment with due dates coming up.. really crazy.... recording a lot lately. most probably recording my band tmr morning...

ok la.. in class now.. hopee mr.aarif dun kill me.. lol... ur class is fun..

idiocy of life..

2009-01-19T19:23:00.002+08:00

Anyone who drive of ride a bike know taht in kl or selangor (its the same la u idiots.. u live 20mins away), that people drive like maniacs... i dun know where u guys get the license (definitely under table wan), all drive so crazy.. in kuantan, at least u can blink wen u drive, here, u blink n that cud be the end of u... car's from the right lane will cut pass u, no signal, to the left lane which is sumtimes is 5lanes apart... they'll jz cut like dat, no signal n the junction is like 10metres away... how fast must u drive n cut... wat the fuck la people...no life meh?.. no brains ka?..aiyoo... use the road like ur grandfather own the road... mangkuk nyer korang!!!...

anyways... here are some idioms in malay i translate to english... hope its funny...

makan tak kenyang, tido tak lena, mandi tak basah - eat not full, sleep like no sleep, bath but not wet,

mati katak - die frog

main kayu tiga - play wood three

air mata - water eye

selamat jalan - safe walk

nyawa-nyawa ikan - fish live

lipas kudung - crippled cockroach

New Year New Post!!

2009-01-14T11:53:00.002+08:00

after 14days of the new year baru mau type post.. ini orang banyak suey kan?.. lol....

anyways, here i am.. in college hogging the net since my class starts at 2pm... i went for the Youth09 Battle of the Bands (BTOB) competition.. kinda disapointing really cz we didnt get chosen even for the semi's cz the like 10-12bands that were chosen out of 22bands for the finals suck!! big time!!.. dunno how they choose but wat to do... v jz see only lor.. but lucky the winner was a band worthy a bit la.. very jam band like.. cool.. then fly.fm had the campur charts thingy.. LOVE ME BUTCH played.. AWESOME>. finally after like 1year, i manage to mosh n scream my lungs out... such a relieved (dat how i calm down btw... well at least i use to.)... den i helped my college pack up their equipment cz they had like a open mic thingy.. We co-op wit doppleganger, sum music/live event organiser.. very good artist show up.. Including Scene At The Movie... they were awesome.. even bout their EP.. cool stuff.....

after all the fun n a good night sleep, returning bek to college after 3weeks holiday, it was like ur floating on air like a bird, den suddenly got show in the ass n u drop to earth.. extreme reality we realise... 3Assignments due... 2 3d assignment and 1 studio acoustic assignment...EXTREME!!!!!...

but it was all cool la.. had a fun day.. nw v hav classes wit mr.Arip, fun guy.... so class isnt dat of a bore...

ok.. malas wan type dy.. oo.. ill b shifting house soon but still looking for a place...

xmas!!.. n the days after...

2008-12-29T20:09:00.002+08:00

woke up xmas morning... 10.30am.. hehe.. had a gud sleep.. bath n got dress in my new jeans n shirt.. look extra handsome (this rarely happens to this ugly soul).. anyhu, so v had our 1st open house, since v move to my new home,.. so i help a lil, ushering only la.. den my family frenz came n ate.. then came my gf, my darling look so beautifull.. in a pink dress... sexy, grrrr... oops.. u didnt hear dat.. ehehehe... anyways, she ate n talk wit me..den i i showed her sum old photos (in my room of cz, no way my baby photos goin to b viewed in public, no way!!).. so den my frenz came, which tottaly ruin the "dating mood" happenin wit my gal..lol....

so den my gal has top go.. send her off n chatted wit my frenz.. had a beer n talked about old times n new things happening... had fun... 7:15pm, everything was over.. every1 went bek full/semi drunk and happy.. n i was stuffed... cudnt eat anyting else... i swear i felt my tummy gonna burst if i ate another grain of rice.... burrppp.. excuse me...

the next day, went out playing futsal wit my frenz.. so tired dey... long time never run like dat.. but it was fun... 27th, planned to go out wit my gal but the plan was later cancel due to sum complication on her side (im not angry or sad wit u sayang)... but v met later at 8pm... at McD at the beach, at which i waited 1hour for her.. so i was a lil pissed but it was ok.. i was a lil moody but at least seeing my angel got me a lil better..

yesday, 28th, finally we went out on the date v planned.. a swim at the beach wit only me n her, had fun, had lunch together... it was really wat me n her needed after a "long break" from dating n goin out wit her.. i was so happy.... so now here i am.. chilling in a cafe, mthinkin of her.. yes, i am man enuf to admit dat i love my gf so much that i wudnt trade her for the world of pleasure n materialisic crap.. cz she is worth more then dat..

anyways... MERR Y XMAS N A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!..LOVE U PRINCESS!!

wat to think?

2008-12-22T20:05:00.002+08:00

sunday i finally went out wit my gal.. afta 2months of separation of not seeing each other... so se decided to go to the beach for a swim la (dat was the final plan)... but wen we reach there... a few complication came up (not from any of us) dat made me a lil angry/tensed..

1st.. mum-in-law(m-i-l) said dat v hav till 3pm cz she(m-i-l) promise the gorrila husband will b bek by that time... so i ok ok la.. feel abit susah but ok la..

2nd ly : m-i-l told dat shudnt bath cz the waves were strong... u.standable but it wasnt so strong.. n we werent gonna swim so deep..

3rd... n the most mind exploding wan.. m-i-l said she want to go to carefour so v need to leave the beach at 2?.. i was angry n pissed.. so i jz spent as much quality time wit my gal.. n went to carefour.. i tot m-i-l wanted to buy sumtthin.. but she didnt even buy anything.. i was so angry.. tho i show a lil sombre-ness to my girl, she was u.standing enuf.. love u sayang.. but m-i-l.. i dunno wat to say la.. nvm... lucky i gave her my presents for xmas (early but who cares)...

yeah!!!!

2008-12-17T19:25:00.003+08:00

only 2more days till i get on a bus home..
so nice.. but a lil screwed up cz i need go college tmr.. i think i drop my mp3 to usb connector.. fucked!!!!!... i need it.. no mp3 i can die or boredness... music is life!!... anyways.. i might or might not go for a movie tmr.. again.. tuesday went movie at gardens.. freaking expensive... lucky titus owe me money so he cover me.. nice place.. the movie i watch, transporter3, not bad.. as as good as the 1st wan, but sitll worth it for a cinema watch,.. but as a fancy as gardens cinema la... normal cinema can la... Anyways.. this might b my last post in a week.. wanna go bek ma.. so ciow.. MERRY XMAS N HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

p.s. im only half as thrilled to go bek nw since my gf dad is not goin anywhere (her dad doesnt noe and is a real screwed up indian)... so i cant meet her freely... very ma fan now...

begining to hate...

2008-12-14T18:44:00.004+08:00

IM beginning to hate this xmas season,,.. it never was kind to me,.... last year i had my laptop snatch... this yea my laptop is fucked n wudnt start.. i spend the last 3days doin nothins.. listenin to my mp3 (which im beginning to get bored of thesongs in it.. tho hav over 4hours of songs inn it)... reading newspaper. i cant do my assignment, cant watch my movies, cant burn my movies.. WAT THE FUCK AM I TO DO!!!????... IM BORED AS HELL.. i cant go out as i want cz need save cash ma.. fixing my laptop means i hv to bring it to HP tower.. not sure will dey finish reapairing it by thurdsay cz im leaving home on friday evening...so wat am i to do the this next 5days????..

i think ill go watch a movie on tuesday.. any1 wanna join?..

10more days n counting..

2008-12-09T19:28:00.003+08:00

10MORE DAYS N COUNTING!!!!... i cant wait to see my chayang... n eat house food (Any home cook meal will do, not only my mum,....hehehe)..... anyways.....

i borrowed my frenz dvd for the season 1 of WEEDS.. n it was fantabulous..,.. it was more addictive then heroes (hmmm.. mayb thats y they called it weeds.. hmmm.. wonder am i sober or high rite now.. hmmmm).... anyhu.. its was great.. i watch all 30mins/episode of 10 yesday evenin.. crazy.. i cudnt stop watchin... very very addictive... then again its not suprising.. ITS WEED...lol..

great series.. but i only watch the 1st season.. hmmm.. gotta get the 2nd wan... any1 got?...

hmmmm...

2008-12-06T18:54:00.004+08:00

for the past 1month i think i hav been having insomnia.. cant sleep till after 3am... n the scary part i can not sleep the whole day n go crazy 3/4 of the 2nd day.. xiao man... man the 2nd nitez sure kantoi dy la.. sleep till there;s no tmr.. then again.. i've always been like that

HAV I ALWAYS BEEN AN INSOMNIAC?

I NOE IM A MANIAC ALREADY>>>.. hmmm...

Maybjz being paranoid here but who cares... now all i want for xmas is jz goin bek home in kuantan in PEACE, not PISS (Mind u Daniel), reset my sleeping clock, see, touch, hug n kiss my darling again im miss her so much ler.. wat to do.. so crayz in love ... and definitely, eat homecook meal.. kinda sick of eating outside.. n i dun dare cook in the house im leavin in now.. the OWNER (The bitch from my last post), is a very very very dirty person....

anyways... i jz want peace n quiet n be surrounded by people i grew up wit n people i really love (MY DARLING GF).... im bored in the city.. wana go bek to nature ... TELUK CHEMPEDAK and ROCK CLIMBING here i coME!!!!!

fuckin snitches

2008-11-30T18:11:00.002+08:00

i hate people who talk behind my bek.. if u hv anything to say den say it to my face bitches.. u dun hv to go around n telling shit about me.. y? no fucking guts?... stupid fuck... n i hav to find out from the person u bitch 2... n that person came n gave me "advice"... hullo you stupid bitch from shitland.. do u noe the whole story? i bet u dun noe shit n jz listen to the bitches side of the story, did u?... stupid fuck... the next time i hear any shit from another person about me bout that bitch bitchin, i swear to the fucking osama bin laden, i will kill u wit my words.. ill make sure ull never even be in this country again.. fucking retard ass.. n ur sons turning into a faggot.. u stupid idiot.. u dun even noe how to handle ur fucking spoiled ass child.. that fucka is trained peeing sitting down?,. HE"S A FUCKING BOY, YOUR BITCH!!!...

the bad thing of a long distance relationship

2008-11-20T20:35:00.003+08:00

i miss my girl,
she means to me the whole world,
when she's around the whole world goes down in a whirl,
her gazing eyes twinkle like a pearl,
i love her so much,
i promise i will always buy her flowers n the whole bunch,
even a romantic dinner n work break lunch,
definitely not eating captain crunch,
ill giv anythin so she'll be here today,
anything jz so on the beach we cud lay,
together,
in her embrace forever,
this poem might not be clever,
but i wish this can make me feel better,
so far away,
day by day,
i count my day,
till i finally am bek to you in a slow dance we sway...

jz a random 3d thingy...

2008-11-20T19:47:00.002+08:00

a scenery scene i did on 3d.. not bad but not good either..

do rate me

i nEED A LIFE!!

2008-11-20T19:39:00.002+08:00

still think i dun hv a life?

MY XMAS LIST

2008-11-10T20:28:00.002+08:00

yes.. ever since i was born.. i never had a xmas list.. here.. this year.. i hv 1.. for the 1st time.. this is it..

1: A NEW LAPTOP SCREEN
2:A NEW PAIR OF DIESEL JEANS (levi's oso no prob)
3:A NEW PAIR OF POLO BELT (any belt will do)
4: Diesel cologne.. (cant find anywhere T.T)
5. A hifi system
6: a good good holiday

and....

the most important of it all

A TIME OUT WIT ONLY ME AND MY GF WIT NO DISTURBANCE!!... I MIZZ HER SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!..

good luck for ur SPM tmr baby... love u!!

GODSPELL

2008-11-10T10:22:00.002+08:00

GODSPELL!!!..A musical by the youth of CDM (Church of Divine Mercy).. a remake of a play done at broadway of the same name... very Good performance.. considering the fact that it only took 3months of gruesome training, no professional acting experience and the amount of script u hv to memorize for that 1hour 30mins show.. my hats off to the cast... not so much to the sound engineer tho,, mics where not working, sound clipping like crazy.. but it was a good job, mind you..

taken form the gospel of matthew, the entire play was awesome... funny, witty n definitely bring the gospel to be viewed in a new perspectif... good work lads. i had a blast there... hope there are more production comin soon,.. if can, i wanna join too.. woohoo!!!!

the beautifull game

2008-11-09T15:17:00.002+08:00

GGGGGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha... ARSENAL WON.. yet again.. u man utd supporters out there, sorry ler
next time ny la... anyways.. duwan to bragg so much la... later got ppl cry lak :-P..

Y is it called the beautifull game... last nite game proved it.. the magnificient goal, the professionalism,
the supporters gettin together tho u dun noe who the next person is (dat happen to me)... 2-1. the score..
but the game play was brilliant.. the skill, the chances mizz and targeted.. the adreanlin rush ( the supporster felt it more)

it was amazing.. duwan talk so much bot this la.. later got ppl complain i football head (u can complain la, im proud of it
so u can say bye bye n go cry la..lol)... anyways.. gonna go watch a musical play later at Church of divine mercy..
dunno wats it about but gonna watch it la.. long time never see a play dy.. n the KLPac n Bangsar Studio standard wan so expensive ler..
so ill let u noe how it was.. nw wanna go n surf the net.. n scream at my man utd supporters frenz... n here i give u..
my favourite team in the whole world (but my gal definitely comes 1st, thats my princess ;-x)...

a glance at current life

2008-11-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

well.. ok ok.. b4 i say anything .. i think ill do this entire post in my own style.. rhyme..

now im stuck,
failing 1subject per sem like wtf?
gotta get my head straight,
gotta stop waking up late,
gotta start losing weight,
gain 7kg in a year,
gotta kick my excercise into gear,
my laptop screens crack,
n it wasnt even my fault, wack!
i cant get in under warranty cz of sum b.s,
ny my power supply is wireless, this is living ass,
my gadget's a mess,
mpe3, laptop, i hate electric technology,
they keep breakin down on me,
no matter how much i take care of it,
i nee wireless electricity,
n free me of this cables circutry,
money's a problem,
aint it every1's?
prices gettin higher but allowance gettin lower,
shud i sell my ass jz get my bread n butter,
goverment fuckin us up,
gettin prices all rockected up,
so fuck i mean this sux,
now gotta finish my assignments,
n keep my brain in a single fragment,
my whole life is a tv show segment,
being pissed at nothin,
no1 to laugh wit,
my girl's bek home,
i feel so alone,
i hate my aunt,
she's a real cunt,
gotta band but i never jam,
shud i move to america n jam wit unc. sam?
dam im so crazy,
y am i lazy?
y is life bitchy?
gotta go tru a maze,
wit this whole education craze,
now im out,
ill leave u to fill the blanks,
ill update u wen get my ranks,
n be prepared for a brand new prank,
SPANK!!!...

till next time

tensed!!

2008-11-04T19:37:00.004+08:00

well, im suppose to write about my diwali happening (ok la, i lied in my last post, didnt quite eat n sleep ny) but today was a really, really fucked up day..

went to subang parade to get a new laptop power supply... didnt hv enuf cash so went to atm to take.. only to find out dat parents havent put in yet wen they said they putting it on monday,, dam pissed at that time... so i call my mum n ask la.. she chuck sum in like today or tmr n will let me noe... till now im still waitin for a message.. haiz..

den came bek home... lappie wuddnt start.. i start tense+gabra.. dam suey... bengang giler siot~!!...
den dunno suddenly it came bek to life.. PRAISE GOD!!!!!... so i did sum minor adjustment to the power supply (hehehehehee), and i hv power but im still getting a new wan...

den i came cafe (where i am now), suddenly my lappie same thing again.. wudnt start.,.. im like WTF!!.. this is b.s....i tried to stay calm (if not the cafe people wud hv call the cops :-P..).... now its bek on again.. really strange.. jz bcz im playing a game where the character is delusional doesnt mean my lappie has to be like dat oso.. xiao!!!... laters den.. listen to my song oso k!!.. im putting in on nw..

diwali glutton!!

2008-10-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

I have almost done with the the list of 7deadliest sins... this past week, i done gluttony.. been eating none stop for 3days.. wen bek kampung, my mum side.. jerantut respresent!!!...

since i havent been there for 2years n havent saw my mum side relative over a year, so they were extra nice (and xtra generous wit the food).. so for 3day n 3night it was mutton!!! chicken!!! rice!!! mutton!! chicken!!rice!! apple pie(hehe.. mum's recepie), mutton!! chicken!! rice!!.. I THINK U GET WAT I MEAN... eat n eat n eat n eat n sleep n eat n eat!!.. sei lor... wen i go bek, the gym will definitely b gettin rich!!.. haiz..

anywayws, i gotta now.. ill write stuff in the cmin weeks..

p.s.. congratulatation to PAULINE YAP N VINCENT in thier wedding.. sorry coudlt be there.. all the best in ur love marriage...

Castle in the Sky

2008-10-21T20:04:00.002+08:00

What do u think or feel wen u see clouds? Do you think its jz random particles n dust dat brings rain?... for me its different... sum times i think it can tell the future (not as in its gonna rain in 5mins) or a story... like yesday evenin, i saw a cloud wit a nuclear explosion image thingy.. made me think of hiroshima (more like tryin to kill my aunt wit it)... n sumtimes random stuff like a cross between a human head n a snake curl's up.. weird i noe.. mayb its jz me la.. wat to do.. dreamer... but for me, its a castle in the sky... hmmm.. now i think i go 1st.. got few people's blog to hack.. no life people.. write blog on INTERNET but keep it PRIVATE.. wat's the use la?

extreme condition

2008-10-16T16:51:00.002+08:00

i actually slept only 2hours in 56hours... how craazzz is dat? mmg gilar oo.. went bek home yesday n dozed off till 9pm.. woke up n sletp again form 2am-1pm jz now.. tonitez overnitghtin again..
playin the drums for andrew,,, n my song.. haiz... wat a week man.post u up next time....

LOVE IS IN THE AIR!!

2008-10-05T13:42:00.002+08:00

here are sum stuff i wrote wen i was in kuantan... dat time miss my gf till like tis la..

in this cold nitez,
Our hearts wished we unite,
tryin to get body's warm,
a hug n kisses sowe'll be calm,
lightning nad thunderdominate the skies,
we hear neighbour baby cry,
the rain makes everything clean,
but there we wait to touch each others skin,
sayang i love u and you know it,
i shall wait for you through cold and hot jz for our eyes again to meet..

Im sure heaven is missin an angel,
cause your here in my heart,
their choirs of angels dont sound as good anymore,
cause ur here wispering in my ear,
telling me in every minute that you love me,
being my conscience and my guiding eyes,
hope you'll be my ghost whisperer till end of time,
cause i love you so much and my heart is yours alone...

now lagi teruk... mizz her more.. only saw her for 2hours during that entire week i was in kuantan... dam fucked... bengang.. but wat to do.. hv to tahan lor.. afta this situation will be worse... haiz.. wat a life.. sakit hati bin disapointed betul!!!!

WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!

2008-10-02T21:00:00.002+08:00

thats all i can say afta exactly 1week in kuantan.. my beautifull hometown.. so many things happens.. a lot to take this 1 whole week.. extreme massacre... real tornadop.. from a lil misunderstanding wit the "wifey" till having fun like crazy at the beautifull Teluk Chempedak Beach (sumthin u KL/selangor folks dun have.. hahaha)... but all good now.. im more steady.. gettin enuf sleep.. being able to watch tv again n memorise the entire astro guide (its a stupid gift i hav but a gift a gift hey!!!)... so will b bek on th 6th again for awhile till the 16th.. 2weeks of horror await.. so halloween.. my favourite celebration on the year (besides my anniversary n my wifey's bday.. tho i never celebrated a real halloween b4).. i jz love puttin eyeshadow n being a real life vampire but now no more dy la..(no more eye shadow.. NO I AINT GAY!!...)... got natural black circles on my eyes.. make me lok like kung fu panda ( HAIYAA!!!).. till den folks.. ciowzz...

IM FINALLY A BLOOD DONOR!!!

2008-09-18T13:49:00.002+08:00

yes.. im am a BLOOD DONOR.. FINALLY!!!!... been always wanted 2 giv blood but never got chance since under age... but last sunday, 15th september... at CDM (CHURCH OF DIVINE MERCY), i gave my blood for donation... 450mm of pure blood (well, not dat pure la... from all the fast food n un-exercised life style).... its was such bliss... GOD BLESS EVERY! WHO GAVE BLOOD THAT DAY!!

Hysteria

2008-08-25T11:54:00.002+08:00

after every syndrome, of cz there will be hysteria... and thats my new video... same like the old only diff song n diff action.. and more crazy effect....

my video

2008-08-15T21:51:00.004+08:00

This is jz a video of me being stupid but plz check out the effects used on the video.. i have converted the file so its not as clear as the original...

Plz rate and comment on my video.. it will be on youtube soon...!!!!

SPECIAL DESSERT FOR A SPECIAL SOME1

2008-08-04T14:15:00.005+08:00

I jz came bek from a 1week holiday bek to my hometown.... felt jz like the old days.... meeting up wit frenz, seeing my sweet n dearly missed gf, and of cz, eating, sleeping and hogging the tv :-)....
wen i was at my gf place, v decided 2make dessert so here got sum pictures la...

the dessert...
ingredients :
chopped manggo
low fat natural yogurt,
honey,
crushed peanut,
tropical fruits cubes,

very good stuff.. trust me

side effect of this thing...
a 5mins of sudden sugar rush that makes u very high as though ur on drugs...
very nice.. heheheh...

jz sumting cheesy

2008-07-21T20:22:00.003+08:00

well this is jz a cheesy poem i wrote for my gf.... any comments.. write ony la

MY LOVE FOR YOU IS LIKE BIRDS AND WINGS,
ERRTIME I THINK OF YOU THE ANGELS SINGS,
MY HEART AND YOURS ARE FOREVER LINKED,
DO YOU STILL REMEMBER WEN I USED TO WINK,
GAZING IN YOUR EYES LIKE CRAZY GUY NEEDING A SHRINK,
THO FAR AWAY I STILL DO THINK,
MEMORIES WIT YOU THAT LAST LONGER THEN INK,
THO IM HUMAN I DO MAKE SINS,
BUT WIT U ALL MY FAILURES WILL BE WINS.

TOLD U ITS CHEESY... BUT HEY.. IT COMES FORM THE HEART

What a day!!!

2008-07-16T19:35:00.002+08:00

sigh..... what a way to start off my day today... i woke up at 8.30 to the sound of the monstrous rain... water splashin the neighbours zink roof and the freakin cat screamin its lungs (err... cat got lungs ar?)...... wondering shud i wait for the rain 2 stop or shud i get ready and have a second morning shower wit the rain.. well, being me, i think u noe which choice i decided...

There i was... unlocking my bike wit my laptop bag on my shoulders covered wit my significantly small raincoat/jacket (the big wan got torn... jz my luck)... started my bike n off i went... jz as i entered the turn 2 the federal highway, my back tyre started 2 wobble.. in my mind, i was screamin fuck all the way... so i got of my bike and started pushing... i pushed and pushed and pushed.. in the iceberg cold rain, the freakin wind didnt help much... till i reached the juntioned 2 subang jaya...

sum indian dude on a bike stop and ask i wanted help (obviously he was a mechanic dat prey on people like me)... being desperate (in need of assistant, not gals) i said yes to his service... nigga charge me 25bucks... bugger la.. but wat 2 do.. desperation of the entire nation was on my shoulders.. sigh.... 20mins of tyre changin and pumping, he was done.. i paid the man n said thank you... n off i went to college.. entered the studio (i had studio tutorial in the morning) wit my moist pants, cold and shivering cz of the A/C, and my hair was messed up... dam....

but, now i look back and see.. hahahah..a.hahahaha,,.. i almost reached my stupid goal... how long wud it take me to reach college if i walk.. hehehe.. guess i noe now.. next time no more. hopefully....

a new video on youtube...

2008-07-07T14:20:00.001+08:00

jz a another video of mine on youtube..
check la.....

DARK TRANQUILITY

2008-06-29T23:15:00.003+08:00

now... for my act.. i an gonna kill you guys with a dark poem of my own (hopefully it works la.. on the spot work ok)
...here we go... BOO!!!

The world spin as death grins,
all winnings are losses and our life in sin,
death to you and the whole world,
curse by God himself his wrath unfolds,
my soul burn as i spitfire,
slashed, scratched jz cause ur a liar,
dun laugh this aint no joke,
ur weak cant handle my poke,
bleed!! and die u bitch,
cz u gav up and became a snitch,
ill suck ur blood like a fuckin leech,
curse ur family like a crazy witch,
my words true, there's no techno glitch,
mess wit me n get the kiss of death,
get u stoned like a tonne of meth,
think thats a bluff,
ill huff and puff till i get ur neck cuffed,
the ones you loved shall rot,
and ur children bought,
slaves they will be,
till eternity it will never cease.

ok.. i think its gone far enuf...

My Emp Photo

2008-06-27T16:39:00.001+08:00

my emp making days... muahahahaha.. got mind fucked like crazy... hence the craziness...

titus, andrew and me in the studio going nuts wit our mix...

MIND FUCKING TO DA MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ELECTRONIC WEEK

2008-06-27T14:06:00.002+08:00

WELL,... so long dy since i update this shit.... well, past two weeks ive been doin my emp project... till now i did like 8songs and loops.. i think.. not sure the exact numb la... but its been fun and frustrating la.. but its all good.. i still love doin it.. jz 2 piss my classmates by bangin da keyboards..muahahahahahahh...... anyways, check my stuff out la.. at my amp site... http://amp.channelv.com/leonardsinclair ... cherrio!!

MY songs on show

2008-06-17T21:05:00.001+08:00

PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUCEMENT>> MY SONGS ARE ON DISPLAY AT

http://amp.channelv.com/leonardsinclair